Help UHH SOMEONE HYPE ME UP OR CONVINCE ME OR SOMETHING

[PaperStar]

UM SO OK OK SO my partner he lost his phone a while ago and lost a LOT of photos with it (ed and sh pictures yea) and I promised him I'd delete all of my sh pictures if he never found his phone (since hey we both lose something and it could help him get over the loss— also because the photos aren't good for me they just make me wanna relapse).

It's been a month?? maybe?? And I'm really like nervous about deleting them but I know I have to. I guess I just need someone to tell me hey you need to get rid of them?? or someone else to convince me because I'm really nervous I DONT WANNA GET RID OF THEM BUT I NEED TO LIKE AT THE SAME TIME I WANT RO BECUSE I DONT WANT MY BOYFRIEND TO HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT PHTOOS I HAVE :(

 

[Forveleth]

Why do you not want to get rid of your self harm pictures?

 

[PaperStar]

Why do you not want to get rid of your self harm pictures?

weird unhealthy attachment to them ig? They're like memories and I like thinking about the scars I have and comparing them to what they looked like as fresh cuts. It's not good though, all it does is make me want more cuts and scars and miss what it was like to have fresh injuries I had to take care of.

 

[Dumbass]

i get that! i also used to be really attached to my SH pictures, but honestly there are rlly long periods in my life where i completely forget those pictures are anywhere i can access. i know it's a hard decision, but maybe you can try "deleting" them for now (aka putting them in your trash) and seeing if you still have the heavy urge to keep them by the time it automatically deletes the files from the trash?

 

[PaperStar]

i get that! i also used to be really attached to my SH pictures, but honestly there are rlly long periods in my life where i completely forget those pictures are anywhere i can access. i know it's a hard decision, but maybe you can try "deleting" them for now (aka putting them in your trash) and seeing if you still have the heavy urge to keep them by the time it automatically deletes the files from the trash?

wait that's actually a pretty good idea I'm gonna try this tyyy!!

 

[PaperStar]

i get that! i also used to be really attached to my SH pictures, but honestly there are rlly long periods in my life where i completely forget those pictures are anywhere i can access. i know it's a hard decision, but maybe you can try "deleting" them for now (aka putting them in your trash) and seeing if you still have the heavy urge to keep them by the time it automatically deletes the files from the trash?

Hey it's been months, I just wanted to let you know that this actually helped a lot? I ended up deleting half my photos shortly after this and then put the rest in a trash folder. I got more help from my partner and about 2 months after when the files were gonna be automatically deleted he was there for me and helped distract me from them so I wouldn't go back and try to stop them from being gone forever. It's kinda hard sometimes cause I really miss the photos, it sucks and I've cried about it more times than I'd like to admit but I know it's better. I have relapsed a good amount of times since then, but the taking photos habit is mostly gone. I don't even think about it sometimes. And then when I do take photos I delete them before I can get attached. I miss them but I'm trying to recover so heh. My boyfriend has also been doing a lot better, things are still really difficult but he's also had a much easier time deleting photos whenever he takes any (which is rare anyway so that's good).

Well uhh basically ty for responding me to then, it helped a lot. Things still suck but my partner and I are trying to get better :]

 

[Dumbass]

Oh my god?? I'm so proud of you!!!!! I'm literally tearing up right now lol omg.

I'm so glad your boyfriend has been there to help you along with recovery (AND of course, great job with working on recovery urself!! genuinely, it can't be done without your own work put into it and you are doing amazing by just trying with it), my partner and I are going through something similar where her and my friends are trying to help me with recovery as well and you have no idea how much I can also see my journey w/ it through that message too

Bottom line, I'm really proud of you and thank you for updating me on that :] Great job!!!!! You got this