
toro
dr pepper drinker
- Feb 11, 2023
- 121
being like an actually legitimately ugly girl is probably one of the most embarrassing things about my life right now. i hate when people lie to your face and you can see them trying to invent a compliment but they genuinely have nothing to pick so its a 'ohh you have amazing eyes :)'. you cant acknowledge being ugly without people seeing it as a beg for attention but you cant try to make yourself prettier either because then its just cringe how hard you're trying and still looking like a mess. i am 20 years old and i look simultaneously 12 and 30, my nose is too big my top lip is too small and my eyes are too far apart. there is no value in existing in the world as someone who is both ugly and uninteresting, but that's my entire life. the only men that have ever been interested in me have been adults while i was a child or men that fixate on sex and wanting to hurt me and i just want to feel pretty so badly. ill never have sex because i hate myself and i refuse to let anyone see me in as disgusting a state as i am when im nude. every other 'ugly girl' out there has beautiful features and at the very least good humour but i may as well be made of cardboard. this post means nothing and adds nothing, i just wish i could take off every feature of my face so i could be left completely blank. if i ever do kill myself there wouldn't be a widespread sympathy for it like the beautiful victims get and I've made peace with that, some people are born to be ugly and left as the filler of society but i just wish so badly that i could've been pretty for even a day