Venting Turned 30 two days ago

[SuicidalCurryBoy]

It is so over for me.

I'm gonna take some time out to finish my memoirs, and then I'm gonna OD.

 

[Linda]

It is so over for me.

I'm gonna take some time out to finish my memoirs, and then I'm gonna OD.

I turned 30 forty two years and numerous days ago. (I remember it well, because when midnight - and my birthday - arrived, I was having a roll in the hay with a nice man. Not the man who is now my husband. I only met him a few months later.) I haven't started writing my memoirs.

Try to put things into perspective.

 

[eupdplishlp]

It is so over for me.

I'm gonna take some time out to finish my memoirs, and then I'm gonna OD.

what's your favourtie memoir of all?

 

[concreterhino]

In my early 30s here. Doesn't have to be over at 30. What do I know though I also wanna die most of the time.

 

[SuicidalCurryBoy]

I turned 30 forty two years and numerous days ago. (I remember it well, because when midnight - and my birthday - arrived, I was having a roll in the hay with a nice man. Not the man who is now my husband. I only met him a few months later.) I haven't started writing my memoirs.

Try to put things into perspective.

Grandma, I'm an incel.
My whole life, I've watched women, including my closest female friends sleep around with other men, but me.

what's your favourtie memoir of all?

My Twisted World, by Elliot Rodger.

It's the only one I've read, ngl

 

[Linda]

Grandma, I'm an incel.
My whole life, I've watched women, including my closest female friends sleep around with other men, but me.

My Twisted World, by Elliot Rodger.

It's the only one I've read, ngl

Are you celibate because you want to be or because you have not had any success with women? If the latter, do you understand why you have not had any success?

 

[bananaolympus]

Welcome to the club

 

[RadiantNumber]

My condolences, I am 30 too

 

[blacksand]

The energy loss I feel at 30 is something that makes ctb feel even more appealing. It's not super dramatic but I recall as recently as 5 years ago staying up to 4am multiple nights in a row and simply sleeping in a little longer and feeling fine. These days I dread any disruption to my sleep pattern because my week is a nightmare afterward. There is a baseline of fatigue that simply never goes away. Again, it's not some massive dramatic change but it's noticable and I can only put it down to aging and it's awful knowing it's only going to get worse.

 

[GhostInTheMachine]

31 here, was convinced I'd be dead by 24, then 27, then 30. I've been wrong 3 times now so I stopped setting arbitrary ages to be dead by. It happens when it happens. As for being an incel, why do you care about sex so badly that you're willing to die over it? Not to be too harsh, but is there literally nothing else in your life that you look forward to? Even if you had sex, you're still going to be in that same position afterwards. Healthy, long-lasting relationships don't happen in a vacuum.

 

[kopebaldy]

Also 30 here.

I was so sure I would have CTB 3 months ago on my birthday, yet my coward ass pussied out. Man it was such a good opportunity and I wasted it.

Suffering until next year I guess.