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- Jun 16, 2024
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I was okay for a good while. Got off medication, got a job, and started hanging out with people again.
That last thing was probably a mistake. I'm not great with people, I get way too attached and I'm incredibly awkward. I'm usually quiet and reserved, but when I purposefully make an effort to interact with people I tend to come off as way too forward and direct. Naturally, other people aren't too fond of these things.
I'm in quite a conundrum. Staying away from social interactions makes me feel like my life is pointless. But the lack of connections after putting in effort just makes things so much worse.
I wish I had someone. In the past, whenever I did, things were a lot better. It's ridiculous how much of a difference it makes. But, it doesn't ever last. I get way too clingy and just want to be around them too much. It's not just romantic interests either, I get like this with friends too.
I hate that I'm like this. I can't stand the thought of always being on my own. I worked really hard to improve myself for many years and now that I've put myself back out in the wild again it's all going to shit. I can't stand it. I can't see the point of fixing yourself if I have to be alone to stay that way.
That last thing was probably a mistake. I'm not great with people, I get way too attached and I'm incredibly awkward. I'm usually quiet and reserved, but when I purposefully make an effort to interact with people I tend to come off as way too forward and direct. Naturally, other people aren't too fond of these things.
I'm in quite a conundrum. Staying away from social interactions makes me feel like my life is pointless. But the lack of connections after putting in effort just makes things so much worse.
I wish I had someone. In the past, whenever I did, things were a lot better. It's ridiculous how much of a difference it makes. But, it doesn't ever last. I get way too clingy and just want to be around them too much. It's not just romantic interests either, I get like this with friends too.
I hate that I'm like this. I can't stand the thought of always being on my own. I worked really hard to improve myself for many years and now that I've put myself back out in the wild again it's all going to shit. I can't stand it. I can't see the point of fixing yourself if I have to be alone to stay that way.