theSquid
Member
- Jul 6, 2023
- 18
30 minutes left until my birthday. Im slitting my wrists soon. I really did not want to make it this far into life. I know i wont be able to do it if i know im going to die, im really cowardly, so im calling it "self harm" in my head and i'll just cut as deep as i can. I'm gonna get as drunk as i can before so it'll be easier to press harder. I've already started drinking. If i hit a vein and start to bleed out i wont call for help. I want fate to decide if im supposed to go or not. If i live, I'll maybe give life another try. If i die, thats it, it was my time. I have tried to live a normal life for almost 20 years now and everything i do fail. I can't do anything that a normal person can. Im pathetic and incapable of anything. I just want to leave now, its well past my time.