Help tried to express myself in art. i almost broke my pen

[Flau]

Yeah pretty much this shit
I got so fucking pissed
but i still need to draw
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fuck that motherfucker i hate him so much i hate myself i hate everything i just canntntntnntntntn
i want to self harm so much but it's been a year and 2 months since i did it last time and i dont feel like going back so even i did all i have is a small scalpel i used to sharpen my pencils and its rusty and dull and aqednoi FUCKKCCKKCKCKKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKKCKK HOW TO DEAL WITH THIS SHITITHITHUITHIUTIHJITHTHIUTHUITH??????????????

 

[OrcWitch]

It's really hard when you have the urge to self harm again after staying away for many months. I'm sorry.

 

[Flau]

It's really hard when you have the urge to self harm again after staying away for many months. I'm sorry.

you know it's hard when i was addicted to it for years and i had to eventually stop due to irl reasons and now that same exact reason makes me want to go back to it
it's as if im starving and i have the most delicious dish in front of me but i cant eat it

 

[Manaaja]

Cool art! You can truly feel the emotion!

I'm sorry your life situation makes you feel like harming yourself. Maybe try punching soft pillows? That sometimes helps me.

 

[OrcWitch]

it's as if im starving and i have the most delicious dish in front of me but i cant eat it

Yeah that rounds harder than other addictions because "out of sight, out of mind" doesn't work.