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endofthelinebros

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Oct 27, 2024
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My plan was to wait for a fatal dose of isonitazene to inject, and in the meantime buy a gram of street heroin to keep me happy-ish for my last few days (I'm 3 years clean, or was anyway)
Well, me being too impulsive and impatient, I decided the gram would be enough, so I just started taking bigger and bigger injections until I took the last half-gram in one shot, along with a lot of vodka and grapefruit juice- then to my horror, realising I was still conscious after my final injection, tried taking every single pill and drink I own until I passed out.
Now I'm still very much alive, but I can feel that I've fucked up my organs big time, I'm desperately hungry but can't keep food down, I can feel abscesses developing on my arms. Problem is if I call for help, they'll know, and I won't be able to CTB. So now I just have to suffer even more for a couple more days until I can actually pull it off. Take this as a warning, don't get too impatient.
 
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zekeyaeger

zekeyaeger

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Mar 30, 2023
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Yeah, that is why I seeked a method that had lesser chances of complications in case it was botched.
 
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endofthelinebros

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Oct 27, 2024
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Yeah, that is why I seeked a method that had lesser chances of complications in case it was botched.
Either way I die. Either whatevers rotting away at me from the inside finishes me in the next couple days, or my stuff arrives and I know for a fact that this is high enough purity to do the job many, many times over. I just wish I'd waited so it could've been more peaceful.
 
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SVEN

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Apr 3, 2023
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So sorry you're in this position.
 
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maniac116

maniac116

My own worst enemy🌹💔
Aug 10, 2024
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ODs are truly unreliable (under 14% success rate).
They leave us really susceptible to mental or physical disability & further suffering.
I'm sorry you gave up on sobriety.
It's still there waiting for you if you choose to continue in recovery🌹💔
 
opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

Eating Disordered Junkie
Jun 2, 2024
1,027
so sorry to read you're suffering so much. I can relate on a lot of levels. I tried with F having a huge tolerance over and over and always fucking woke up no narcan no detox. wishing you peace and relief no matter what's next. 🤍🤍 here if you want to chat before you go.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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That sounds really horrible to me but anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find peace and relief from the suffering, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering.