Help Tried cutting throat in psychiatric ward but how deep will be enough?

[AngelBritney]

Short story: My good-natured side brought me into trouble last month. I had an appointment at my medical specialist (he prescribes me medications for my depression). He noticed that my mood was good and asked why. I told him I have something good in my mind which will bring me peace. First big mistake.

He then asked what specifically. I tried to talk around it but he might knew at that point that he shouldn't stop finding out what I had planned.

He asked me to be honest and open or else he can't treat me any longer.

I have borderline, so this unfortunately triggered that fear to loose someone who I like or is nice to me. So I told him about my suicide plan, but he still had to ask to find out all the details.

I was brought to a closed psychiatric ward with an ambulance and police officers (To the police: Fuck you for putting me in handcuffs and treating me like a criminal!)

The next day I was alone in the bathroom in that ward. They didn't search me well enough to find my razor blades and a nurse bullied me so I had huge trouble sleeping that ward and I was so over it. So I took a blade... I was nervous so I could only cause very minor damage. Unfortunately I couldn't go any further because another patient came into the room and I threw the blade away in the bin and left the bathroom.

I told the nurses a lie about those marks on my neck ("I scratched myself very hard.") and they believed me.

My partner brought me home and when we arrived he immediately noticed that those marks weren't caused by hard scratching. He said those were marks caused by a razor blade but I was able to convince him otherwise.

That story proved me that cutting my throat would be the right method. I know it will hurt like hell. It will be messy. But it's a method which will help me to find peace within minutes.
(Cutting wrist would take too long and I wouldn't loose enough blood.

Do you know how deep I have to cut my throat? And where exactly?

I'm so done with this life and don't know how to find out how to correctly do this so I can be gone within minutes.

PS: Please don't try to talk me out of suicide. I made my decision. I know this will hurt 2 people but I lived long enough with my pain and I know suicide is my destiny.

 

[Higurashi415]

Centimeters. It's very unlikely you'll succeed.

 

[AngelBritney]

Centimeters. It's very unlikely you'll succeed.

Why?

 

[canoekit]

Depends on what you are aiming for. The windpipe is 1-4cm deep, the carotid artery is about 2-3cm deep. These are only estimates as depending on where you're cutting, that'd affect the depth as well. Though, I can imagine you want to know the most superficial areas. In that case, the windpipe is most superficial just above the notch of the sternum and below the larynx. The arteries are most superficial in the carotid triangle.
However, I do need to highlight some things. If you're trying to go for the carotid artery, it is incredibly protected by layers of fascia and other structures in the neck. Just because you can palpate it and feel your pulse, doesn't mean it is in any way close to the skin. By the time you'd cut deep enough, you can pass out from shock. Additionally, the arteries themselves are tough to cut through, EMTs and other first responders describe them as rubbery, thick, and they can actually slip away from the blade. If you're going for the windpipe, then I would imagine that'd be difficult to slit as well due to its cartilage structure as well as being overlayed by the cervical fascia, but I am not 100% sure as I never researched this method myself. If you were to still attempt this method though, and since it's quite unlikely to be successful, it will result in nerve damage, muscle damage, respiratory and vascular issues, potential paralysis, long and very painful recovery time, and a nasty scar.

I understand why you'd go for this method though. I myself considered it when I first became set on CtB. I'd advise you to plan on any other method but this one, even just a simple glance at the following threads would be of use and help you give some thought. Please do remember you deserve a peaceful, reliable, and much less painless or troublesome way to go. Take care of yourself.

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[SymphonyOfSuffering]

U'd need a great deal of willpower and insanity to succeed with this, 99% of ppl wont have the balls to pull through and itll jus end in a failed, albeit bloody attempt