Ive had thoughts on that before too so you arent alone in questioning it
I think for me I came to the conclusion Im just a cis dude that likes feminine things sometimes and doesnt relate to typical straight dudes very much, but Id be lying if I said there wasnt a part of me that still wonders if Im just deeply in denial about it or something lmao
Still, hey, regardless of who you really are, I hope you figure that out while youre still here and I hope it brings something worthwhile to your life in doing so
And
I also hope you dont end up breaking your nose? That cant be something fun to experience
But good luck if youre dead-set on it, hopefully it all works out for you