Method Train, meds, rope

[Sea water]

Lately I've been "joking" around a lot about ending myself and my friend asked the other day: "if you want to die so badly, why won't you kill yourself?"

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Anyway, I've been thinking the most about laying on train tracks since they're really close to my dormitory and I could easily go there when it's dark and probably with nobody else out there, buying a huge amount of sleeping meds or something like that and taking them all maybe with alcohol or just a shit ton of them orrr just simply hanging myself.

I want to know what would be the best option cuz I am kinda afraid of the pain that might come with the train, when it comes to meds I'm obviously afraid of it just failing in general (also idk what are the strongest sleeping meds I can get without prescription in Poland) and when it comes to hanging idk where I would do it and what rope should I pick (if it matters I am around 177 cm tall and weight 58 kg I think)

 

[EmptyBottle]

Trains can cause non fatal injury if they sweep one off the track, or there is bad luck, and it isn't fun.
Generally, OTC sleeping aids aren't that strong.
Also, I'm not a rope expert tho.


PS: Welcome to SaSu, sorry that I had to bring "bad news", hopefully one can find relief and peace from whatever one seeks, and can share that relief around.