Totally panicking now

[bigfishlittlefish]

I thought I could do this, but I can't. I'm defiitely ready to go now but just discovered that D isn't around any more so I've got no idea how to get any N to make my exit. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. FUCK. What the fuck am I going to do? I can't do this. I can't live another forty more years. I don't knnow if I can live another forty more days any more tbh.

 

[loneliness0]

I am sure it emotional that things did not work out as planned.

You don't have to stay 40 years. However having high success and painless as possible plan in some time seem much better then emotional plan very soon what would have way lower success rate or unpredictable results what leaves you worse off and still here.

 

[ThisIsLife]

There are other ways than N.

 

[hi-okbye]

i see your really stressed out, i would be too.

my best advice is that there's a lot of other methods around here that you could try getting access to. you've had your account for a while so you probably know about the suicide resource compliation.
maybe take some deep breaths, it might help get your mind back on track to what your trying to do, so you can look at this from a reasonable point. good luck <3

 

[FuneralCry]

It's so horrible how we cannot just easily leave this existence in a peaceful way, I certainly understand that it's so dreadful feeling so trapped here. I hate how N isn't accessible, it really would prevent so much suffering if we could access it, it's such a hellish world where it's purposely made so difficult to die, I despise this anti-suicide society.

 

[bigfishlittlefish]

I am sure it emotional that things did not work out as planned.

You don't have to stay 40 years. However having high success and painless as possible plan in some time seem much better then emotional plan very soon what would have way lower success rate or unpredictable results what leaves you worse off and still here.

I'm only going once I can do highsuccess/lowpain,but now that it's near impossible to get Nembutal I don'tknow how I can do that, which is why I'm panicking.

It's so horrible how we cannot just easily leave this existence in a peaceful way, I certainly understand that it's so dreadful feeling so trapped here. I hate how N isn't accessible, it really would prevent so much suffering if we could access it, it's such a hellish world where it's purposely made so difficult to die, I despise this anti-suicide society.

I was < this > close to buying some early last year but things got just better enough I thought I'd be safe to leave it. Turns out I should've just bought some anyway, just in case :(

i see your really stressed out, i would be too.

my best advice is that there's a lot of other methods around here that you could try getting access to. you've had your account for a while so you probably know about the suicide resource compliation.
maybe take some deep breaths, it might help get your mind back on track to what your trying to do, so you can look at this from a reasonable point. good luck <3

I've been on prescription opiates for years due to chronic health problems so none of those meds would work for me and as I live alone I want to be utterly sure I'll succeed and virtually no other method has good a success rate.

There are other ways than N.

Not as reliable/painless. I live in chronic pain and with disabilities every day already, I need to make sure I don't accidentally just make my life even worse than it already is.

 

[WAITING TO DIE]

It's utterly infuriating how the pro - lifers are denying us access to N.
Fuck them all.