Venting Torture chamber

[SilentSadness]

We have no power at all, not even to defend ourselves against the selfish advances of others. I don't see at all how anyone could want this, it's bizarre to me, they must be so delusional I'm jealous.

 

[SilentSadness]

I hate how bad people always get away with everything, and then everyone supports them until the end as a hero, while their victims are neglected and blamed. The worse of a person you are, the more likely you are to find success and support from others, and this increases exponentially for very bad people. Humans naturally gravitate towards the greedy and apathetic and simply have no time for basic morals. What's the point in living in a world where everyone is so horrific, it's impossible to imagine something worse. I really wish I could die sooner, sadly I'm stuck waiting for a pet to die. This world is 100% futile and agonising, there is no hope that anything will improve and nothing ever has. I never did anything to deserve this, so the people responsible are despicable. I believe that natural selection ensures that only the most toxic and repulsive individuals survive and breed, I think the end result will be that humans maximise torture and suffering to minimise death and antinatalism. This world really is horrifying, there is no justice so it's unsurprising that people invent imaginary figures to serve justice in another world. For me this world is basically solitary confinement in a maximum security prison, the only chance of escape is that the guards care so little about the inmates that they won't notice my suicide in the corner until it's too late for them to torture me back to life. But they definitely would if they could, they would absolutely bring people back to life so they could abuse and torture them as slaves. This world is really about torture, not happiness or choice. It's difficult to understand just how toxic most people really are, I'm not even an exceptionally good person but the people in this world are dire and unlovable, they just keep using everyone else for their own ends. This will go on forever by the way, me saying this over and over obviously won't change anything and I'll probably be here next year saying the same thing.

 

[Namelesa]

I totally understand this feeling of life being a torture chamber and about the confusion on how most people get through this poopy world. I actually did some creative writing on how life is a torture chamber to me, don't know if reading it might comfort you in some way.

I don't really do creative writing as I am not good with words but I had the inspiration to write this. Probably not going to write something like this again unless another idea comes into my head. (CW: self harm metaphors, torture)

Torture Chamber

Inside my head is a torture chamber
Constantly making me suffer
Nailed to the wall
Getting whipped and humiliated
By my emotions and thoughts
Cutting words deeply onto me
Forever scarring me
So I always remember how worthless I am
And how it and I won't get better

Please make it stop
Make it stop
It's getting too much
There's no reprieve
Or end in sight
I can't escape
Nor can I kill myself
So I have to stay here miserable for an eternity
And slowly wait until I achingly bleed out

I hope you are able to escape this chamber one day, you don't deserve to have forcefully suffered what you have gone through.

 

[SilentSadness]

Extreme cruelty from just everyone, everyone treats me like a burden, no one has time for me, but everything to gain. Pointless and degrading to put up with people you hate every day. I really wish I could use my SN, my pet is the only reason I'm staying alive for now, in case they are treated even worse than me.