Top tip re: SH

[Ash]

If you cut or blood let, be careful about becoming anaemic. I'm sitting here in tears because I'm already breathless with a racing pulse (thanks to pulsatile tinnitus I can hear it) and the washing machine has just finished and I may or may not have the energy to hang up my laundry.

If I felt like this because my body was dying, I think I'd be ok (impossible to predict, I know) but just feeling so miserable and ill and a slow timetable of recovery is dispiriting at best.

So be careful, even if you're suicidal and deliberately taking risks. We're too quick to blame ourselves, sometimes, but this is definitely my own fault.

 

[willitpass]

I'm sorry you're going through this. It's a horrible thing to cause yourself so much suffering and have to sit with the knowledge that you did it to yourself. I often struggle with feeling like I'm not allowed to be upset with my suffering because I intentionally did it to myself after all. Please have grace with yourself. You did it to yourself, but your mind is not well or you would not have done it. I wish I could help.

 

[Ash]

I'm sorry you're going through this. It's a horrible thing to cause yourself so much suffering and have to sit with the knowledge that you did it to yourself. I often struggle with feeling like I'm not allowed to be upset with my suffering because I intentionally did it to myself after all. Please have grace with yourself. You did it to yourself, but your mind is not well or you would not have done it. I wish I could help.

Thank you. Xxx

I'd ask you to come here and hang up my laundry or play with the dog but I suspect you'd be even more shattered than me

 

[willitpass]

Thank you. Xxx

I'd ask you to come here and hang up my laundry or play with the dog but I suspect you'd be even more shattered than me

Only if you play with my cat and wash the dishes :)

 

[rozeske]

Am sorry to see you suffering. I hope you feel better soon. Try and be kind to yourself as you never would have put yourself through this if you could help it

 

[Jorms_McGander]

If you cut or blood let, be careful about becoming anaemic. I'm sitting here in tears because I'm already breathless with a racing pulse (thanks to pulsatile tinnitus I can hear it) and the washing machine has just finished and I may or may not have the energy to hang up my laundry.

If I felt like this because my body was dying, I think I'd be ok (impossible to predict, I know) but just feeling so miserable and ill and a slow timetable of recovery is dispiriting at best.

So be careful, even if you're suicidal and deliberately taking risks. We're too quick to blame ourselves, sometimes, but this is definitely my own fault.

I had no idea I could make myself anemic until I did lol. Then I realised it follows directly from dumping my circulatory system that my body becomes low on the basic components of blood which it must replace.

I think that living with my face toward death has given me unique strengths (which I will use to die once they are enough). I see those same strengths in what you're writing. I'm trying to say I identify with you lol. I just provide some evidence in case you don't believe me

Fault schmault. Self injurious behaviours are said to have a cause as well. All of this is caused by some effect. We're drops of water falling in a waterfall, separated momentarily from the greater mass perhaps but how could we be responsible for the movement

 

[Ash]

I had no idea I could make myself anemic until I did lol. Then I realised it follows directly from dumping my circulatory system that my body becomes low on the basic components of blood which it must replace.

I knew ... I just forgot

 

[Jorms_McGander]

I knew ... I just forgot

My reaction means a chuckle lol. "YAY" hahaha.

Well what doesn't kill us makes us stronger even if we then turn around and use that strength to kill ourselves