Took a little break from this site and i come back to this bullshit. Who am i supposed to go to now? This shit is just pushing me to want to ctb more.

[Lifeless mindset]

This was it for me. This was a place where I could share my true feelings about my life and how I choose to deal with my suffering. I'm not mad at the moderators/creator for doing what they have to do to try to keep what's left of SS, I am mad at pro lifers trying to silence us in our time of need, Its like they're forcing us to get "real help", Well what if we don't want your fucking help? We made our own help and our own help is this right here. Our own help is Sanctioned Suicide. If SS was never here, I would have probably hurt myself using who knows what and would possibly be bed ridden for the rest of my fucking life or simply continue to suffer in this shitty world because I wouldn't be aware of any peaceful pill. If SS was never here, I wouldn't have met all of these people that I can relate to. I can't relate to my parents on the same level that I can relate to the members of this site, I can't relate to a God damn therapist to the same level as the people I can relate to the members of this site. If I'm being honest I feel like ctb sooner due to this bullshit. Now I'm back to keeping all my questions and thoughts to myself. YES I am greatful that this site isn't full shut down but what im not gonna do is sit here and act like I'm not pissed off that I can't talk about what I'd like to talk about. It feels like I'm quietly being forced to stay alive and shut up about it, sounds crazy but thats just how I fucking feel.

 

[ThriveOrDie]

Same here. This site kept me from ctb last time my urges got really bad. I tried to pull myself back together and I was doing ok until covid. I had to move back home. I'm surrounded by toxic narcissistic people. I have nowhere else to go for support. This is devastating. I haven't been able to hold down a steady job since 2017. I'm completely broke and drowning in debt. I'm stuck with my shitty family unless I check in to the ER for "help".

 

[Amumu]

Ask @JustJudah he may have a solution for you

 

[Versailles]

Ask @JustJudah he may have a solution for you

Just to be clear, I am not the Messiah, I don't like crucifixion as a CTB method.

 

[FogFilledLife]

Only people left are Daddy Liquor and Momma Rope. Not like anyone ever has or ever will care anyways, all we can do is talk until we're ready to ctb.