I for one cannot use 4chan because its threads have a timed lifespan, and the UI is way too confusing. For all my life I've been a quiet lurker, and mostly in tiny places, so having that immense torrent of messages on 4chan is incomprehensible to me. (Although I do search 4chan archives for my 2 fetishes on /d/, and sometimes the latest American news on /pol/ (this one actually started with the coronavirus, and then the war (yes, I was reading 4chan for news about a war in my country because the Russian 2ch is even more confusing to me in its UI, and the lingo they use))).
But I fully understand being split! In my case, being a 1) pro-Russian 2) Anglophonic 3) Ukrainian adds even more schizophrenia to the mix, haha.
I get what you mean. I'm trans, but also quite edgy, offensive and depressing. I'm too depressing for most trans communities, too offensive for the rest and too trans for those who would accept me for being depressing or offeensive.
1. Nick Fuentes used to have that famous affair with a "catboy".
2. Gavin McInnes did unspeakable things on camera that one time.
(I'm not saying either of them is radical or even based, but I'm pretty sure there are plenty of edgy trans folk! Hell, there are historical pics of Nazis crossdressing! The right side of the force is a pathway to many things xd)