tonight's the night. SN at midnight EST

[hunterfla]

The past 30+ years has been leading up to tonight. A series of childhood trauma and poor decisions has brought me to tonight. I was trying to hold on until at least January to not put this extra stress on my family during the holidays, but I can't wait any longer. I have reached my breaking point and truly cannot see a path forward after the events of today. I won't be able to do as long of a fast as I anticipated and don't have the ample antiemetics but I am at least going to try. In a way, I think my only chance is a sudden somewhat impulsive date like this, as when I have tried to plan a specific date it never happens. With any luck, I will be on the other side (or whatever is after this) in about 6 hours. If for some reason I fail, I will continue this post and report my experience to the best of my ability.

 

[PanaxMan]

Good luck, mate.

 

[Lookoutbelow]

Safe travels friend.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you find the freedom you search for, best of luck with your plans.

 

[CloudyNightSky]

Hope for a peaceful journey. No pain or only little, no regrets (but if you have a doubt then don't) and wish for your last moments to be as nice as possible. The main thing is to feel good so I hope youre not suffering and feel even a little bit calm

 

[dizzdesi]

Good luck, I hope all goes well. Wishing you the very best x

 

[Nortu]

Wish you all the best, may the remaining time you have be peacefull

 

[Novacaine]

Best of luck

 

[Old Friend]

Good luck to you. I hope it goes well for you. I'll raise a glass.

 

[chuerdhmproton]

The past 30+ years has been leading up to tonight. A series of childhood trauma and poor decisions has brought me to tonight. I was trying to hold on until at least January to not put this extra stress on my family during the holidays, but I can't wait any longer. I have reached my breaking point and truly cannot see a path forward after the events of today. I won't be able to do as long of a fast as I anticipated and don't have the ample antiemetics but I am at least going to try. In a way, I think my only chance is a sudden somewhat impulsive date like this, as when I have tried to plan a specific date it never happens. With any luck, I will be on the other side (or whatever is after this) in about 6 hours. If for some reason I fail, I will continue this post and report my experience to the best of my ability.

Good luck mate, will be following your thread and praying for you

 

[hunterfla]

I'm truly touched by the kind words and support from everyone. I hope you all have a prosperous life or peaceful ctb, whatever your path may be. I just took dramamine - I know it might not be effective but it's all I have. Four hours until my first sip.

 

[Old Friend]

I will be alseep by then as it's gone midnight here. All the best to you.

 

[cheese.out]

I wish you nothing but peace and love on your journey May your soul rest easy

 

[violetchiwawa]

Good luck. I'll have you in my thoughts as the clock strikes midnight.

 

[hunterfla]

I've taken 2 beta blockers and 2 calcium channel blocks and will repeat each hour. I've prepared 3 servings of sn and plan to only drink those if I'm too weak to prepare fresh at midnight.

 

[Smelly_ballz]

I've taken 2 beta blockers and 2 calcium channel blocks and will repeat each hour. I've prepared 3 servings of sn and plan to only drink those if I'm too weak to prepare fresh at midnight.

how do you feel? are you nervous? excited? neutral? or something else?

 

[SVEN]

Best wishes for a successfull and peacefull journey.

 

[leavingsoon99]

If you're serious, then I hope for success and a quick passage. May your soul find peace if not a better place.

 

[timeslipp]

I'm truly touched by the kind words and support from everyone. I hope you all have a prosperous life or peaceful ctb, whatever your path may be. I just took dramamine - I know it might not be effective but it's all I have. Four hours until my first sip.

Best of luck to you! ❤ I'm also going to use dramamine for mine, so keeping my fingers crossed that this works!

 

[suffocatingseraphim]

Wishing you love and relief after a long life of pain, in your last moments, I hope you feel only love and levity. Rest easy, my friend. I hope your soul finds peace

 

[Kurai]

Best wishes good luck to you

 

[hunterfla]

how do you feel? are you nervous? excited? neutral? or something else?

Mostly I just feel very sleepy. My oxygen and heart rate are low (for me) and I'm very drowsy. I set my alarm in case I doze off. I'm not sure if nervous is the right word - I guess I'm nervous about the possibility and repercussions of failure but not about crossing over or however you want to call it. I'm excited that I possibly already suffered through my last day, but unfortunately if I succeed I'll never actually know it.

 

[Smelly_ballz]

Mostly I just feel very sleepy. My oxygen and heart rate are low (for me) and I'm very drowsy. I set my alarm in case I doze off. I'm not sure if nervous is the right word - I guess I'm nervous about the possibility and repercussions of failure but not about crossing over or however you want to call it. I'm excited that I possibly already suffered through my last day, but unfortunately if I succeed I'll never actually know it.

Rest easy, whether it is falling asleep or death

 

[Scythe]

Goodluck, hope you can find peace. i wish you a swift journey.

 

[Unknown21]

Goodluck.

 

[Solo]

All the best mate

 

[undecided]

Mostly I just feel very sleepy. My oxygen and heart rate are low (for me) and I'm very drowsy. I set my alarm in case I doze off. I'm not sure if nervous is the right word - I guess I'm nervous about the possibility and repercussions of failure but not about crossing over or however you want to call it. I'm excited that I possibly already suffered through my last day, but unfortunately if I succeed I'll never actually know it.

I'm so sorry you feel the only way out is to end your life. I hope you're calm and anxiety free when your time comes. Hugs.

 

[Gonnerr]

Good luck, I hope you escape peacefully.

 

[Arcitect]

Good luck man, I'm sorry you had to suffer so long. I hope you find your peace, and safe travels.

 

[Some place nice]

Sorry you had to endure so much pain. Good luck friend and have a peaceful end.