Tonight is the night, it's time to say goodbye

[AJ95]

Hi everyone,

I want to start by saying thank you to all of you here at SS. You guys are amazing and without all of you, your support, and the resources here I wouldn't have been able to ctb properly, I would've been left to suffer for god knows how long.

The staff team here do a great job of running this site, even though I imagine it must be so hard to keep such a stigmatized website running.

I've made some great friends here, some of the best I've ever had honestly. The people here are amazing, and it has meant so much to finally find some people I'm able to relate to and be open and comfortable with about everything, even killing myself.

Some people I'd like to thank specifically:

@SuchAStrangeWorld, you were the first friend I ever made here! We've talked a lot since then and you're a really great person
@Lilacmoon, my internet wife and constant supporter <3
@degeneratewaste, my favourite brit
@Suicidal Prince, for being such a sweetheart
@almost_dead, my favourite person from THAT city. You memed too close to the sun and I miss you
@cryptic__egg, my little cripper and favourite memer
@angel-of-the-night, you were such a caring friend and a great mod, I hope you've found peace
@atari, for always looking out for me
@iftheworldwasending, for caring so much about me
@Nature_is_God, thank you for being my friend

This list isn't exhaustive and is in no particular order, just some people who sprang to mind.

I'll be following the stat regimen laid out in Stan's Guide as follows, and will have fasted for 6 hours when I take the SN:

12:00am AEST	1000mg of paracetamol, 15mg mirtazapine
12:15am AEST	30mg of metoclopramide
12:30am AEST	4x Rennie Indigestion Relief (antacid)
01:00am AEST	20g of SN in 50ml of water

I'll be on the site until then to talk and update you guys. It's currently 11:02pm

Thanks for everything, please remember me

 

[Cakes]

Awwh man I'm upset, I wish I had made my account earlier! I was a lurker and your DP caught my eye! Wishing you nothing but the best and peace

 

[Spitfire]

I will remember you

 

[Dead beat dad]

Sending you love and peace friend. I'm so sorry your journey has come to this. I sinceley hope there is calm, kindness and light for you and that you can rest in peace.
Love and respect friend, a swift and safe journey.
DBD

 

[Lilacmoon]

I'll pass this along to Degen and give you her love and support too if she doesn't wake up.

We both love you so much Aj, and it hurts to have you go. But you do what you have to do, I don't want you to have to suffer anymore. You deserve peace too. You helped guide a lot of people on how to gather stuff for an easy passing, so hopefully your reward will be the sift and peaceful journey that you wish for everyone else.

Thanks for being my friend <3 -too many ugly cry hugs-

 

[woxihuanni]

Fair winds...

 

[Esc9434]

I didn't know you very well, but good luck. Don't go into the white light.

 

[toms_space_station]

Farewell

 

[141592653]

Bye AJ !

 

[RedRed]

I always see you! It's a shame that I only created an acc here quite recently. Your dp will always be memorable. I wish for a light to guide your path! Good bye and rest well :'))

 

[Blank Dreamer]

Your posts were an enjoyable read. Wished I had interacted with you more. You seem like a very good person.

I'll be having a drink to your memory. Wish you the best and that you may find peace. Farewell, the rest of us will be meeting you shortly.

Cheers.

 

[ImsooDone1N]

Wishing you peace & that you may have smooth travels~

 

[MiseryLovesMyCompany]

I hope you find peace and everything goes according to your plan for once.
Good luck.

 

[AJ95]

I've got a playlist of some of my favourites to listen to after I drink the SN, total length is 34 mins so it should be plenty long enough.

 

[Rn110bg101]

We'll always remember you! I hope you find happiness and peace in what follows this. Good luck!

 

[Lostandlooking]

Wishing you a smooth journey, please keep yourself safe and I hope there'll be no more bumps in the road towards ctb. Hope you find what you desire.

 

[Despairing]

I wish you peace whatever choice you make.

 

[Cursed4ever]

I Wish You Get Peace You Deserve
Much Love
Safe Travels
Big Hug
Loves xoxo

 

[Captive of Mind]

Ava! My heart dropped when I saw this! We all know it is coming and that this is the deliverance we desire, but it still comes like a thief in the night and hits you when you're off guard.

We were able to provide company for each other in these final days of ours and it means a lot. It really does.. When we are in such a depraved condition and rejected by the world, this community opens it's arms to us. I wish I could have been there for you more, but my mental afflictions have taken away my words at times.

I am in tears now. Partially tears of hate for this world and how much pain and suffering people like us have to endure, and partially tears of joy because you will find the escape hatch which is hidden and only could be found by the ones who want it the most. If you open it and make it to the other side, save me a spot up there, I won't be too far behind you. I want out of here so badly..

Please be with us in the chat until the time comes if you are able to do so. If not, I fully understand. Also, remember that if you choose not to go through with it, we will not judge you or look at you any differently. Only you will know if it is the right decision.

Sending you love and understanding. May you be free from whatever it is that torments you, however it comes to be.


P.S Make sure to greet me with a, "Henlo fren" when I see you on the other side.

 

[AJ95]

Thank you all for the kind words it means a lot.

I'm not able to go in a hotel like I wanted but my brother is away at least so he won't be here when they find my body.

 

[degeneratewaste]

ah god fucking damn.
@AJ95 thankyou so much for being a friend to me since you joined. i have appreciated your company so much in this short time i have known of you, you have definitely made me laugh and your take-no-shit attitude has always been admirable.

i'm glad that you are finally finding away to get rid of the pain, i'm just so sorry that it had to be this way. you deserve all the peace in the world, my darling, and i won't forget you.

thankyou so much for keeping me company. i hope you have a safe and peaceful journey until the end. as my nana used to say to me; goodnight & god bless. so much love to you. x

 

[AJ95]

ah god fucking damn.
@AJ95 thankyou so much for being a friend to me since you joined. i have appreciated your company so much in this short time i have known of you, you have definitely made me laugh and your take-no-shit attitude has always been admirable.

i'm glad that you are finally finding away to get rid of the pain, i'm just so sorry that it had to be this way. you deserve all the peace in the world, my darling, and i won't forget you.

thankyou so much for keeping me company. i hope you have a safe and peaceful journey until the end. as my nana used to say to me; goodnight & god bless. so much love to you. x

Thank you so much degen

This brought tears to my eyes <3

 

[storm15]

I wish you the best, sleep well

 

[TripleA]

Wish you eternal peace

 

[Shiv15]

Oh noo
You have made some great guides on here, and us being in the same country helps me resonate with you and apply your information.

I really do hope you find peace. Wish you all the best.

 

[Lazuli]

I've been following your story, about how you struggle under your parents' constant watch, and I definitely can relate. Here's wishing your exit to be swift and painless.

 

[AJ95]

12:07: Just took my mirtazapine and paracetamol, a tiny bit behind schedule.
12:17: Just took my meto

 

[IBreathButNoMoreLive]

Hi everyone,
I want to start by saying thank you to all of you here at SS. You guys are amazing and without all of you, your support, and the resources here I wouldn't have been able to ctb properly, I would've been left to suffer for god knows how long.

The staff team here do a great job of running this site, even though I imagine it must be so hard to keep such a stigmatized website running.

I've made some great friends here, some of the best I've ever had
Thanks for everything, please remember me





AJ95 I didn't get to know you I'm sorry hun, but I wish you a peaceful & blissful eternal sleep sweetheart I'm sorry life was cruel as it is for so many of us souls here ... may we all find our rightful exit from this painful existence called life xxx

 

[Soul]

Wishing you right outcomes, whatever you decide.

 

[x~Sophia~x]

Quick and peaceful journey, I don't know you well, but I'll miss you and your posts.