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Pulmonicis

Pulmonicis

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Jan 1, 2019
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Woke up excited. Fresh, well-slept human being with the purpose. The purpose to end what should'nt even begin.

I told my parents that I am going to skii in Poland for a few days with my friends. It was another lie, added to this big pile of pretentious "normal life" I was living for a past month. "How were exams?" ; "How was the weekend at L***'s (my ex) house?" ; "How is K****s (my best friend) doing?" Every answer to these questions were distractions. I am feeling extremely heartbroken to leave my parents behind like that. Wrote an apologetic note, explained my actions in detail hoping that they understand me just a little bit.

I wanted to thank you guys. Your the most accepting community out there. No judgement, no criticism, just pure love for other people feeling the same way. I am just feeling down, that I haven't stumbled across this site months ago. *Hugs to you all*

Tonight, at 00:00 I am drinking SN. Gonna give u updates on this thread about my experience.
 
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Ldog9

Ldog9

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Jan 12, 2019
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Good luck. I'm glad you found some peace.
 
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TheNorthernSilence

TheNorthernSilence

Arcanist
Nov 13, 2018
430
I wish you all the best.
 
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throwaway777

throwaway777

一人、部屋で、独り。
Oct 3, 2018
641
i hope ur suffering will end tonite
 
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Mylifeispointless

I've suffered enough, I give up
Jan 12, 2019
30
I hope you find your peace. Hugs to you too. Xoxo
 
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throwaway_2620

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Nov 1, 2018
370
I wish you all the best and I hope you find peace. Good luck dude!
 
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JustAboutDone

Illuminated
Jan 1, 2019
3,532
Wishing you all the best @Pulmonicis am glad you're in a good frame of mind :-) I'm sure there'll be lots of people here so you won't be alone if you don't want to be xxxx
Sending you love ❤️
 
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therhydler

therhydler

Enlightened
Dec 7, 2018
1,196
Good luck and lots of hugs
 
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Deleted member 4993

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Good luck and hope your journey is peaceful
 
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Avicii

Avicii

Looking
Sep 4, 2018
424
Woke up excited. Fresh, well-slept human being with the purpose. The purpose to end what should'nt even begin.

I told my parents that I am going to skii in Poland for a few days with my friends. It was another lie, added to this big pile of pretentious "normal life" I was living for a past month. "How were exams?" ; "How was the weekend at L***'s (my ex) house?" ; "How is K****s (my best friend) doing?" Every answer to these questions were distractions. I am feeling extremely heartbroken to leave my parents behind like that. Wrote an apologetic note, explained my actions in detail hoping that they understand me just a little bit.

I wanted to thank you guys. Your the most accepting community out there. No judgement, no criticism, just pure love for other people feeling the same way. I am just feeling down, that I haven't stumbled across this site months ago. *Hugs to you all*

Tonight, at 00:00 I am drinking SN. Gonna give u updates on this thread about my experience.
I dint know why your going to blog the mods will just shit themselves and remove the blog once your dead like they have countless others !! Makes a mockery of the site
 
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letmeseethedeath

letmeseethedeath

catching the bus
Aug 4, 2018
465
Woke up excited. Fresh, well-slept human being with the purpose. The purpose to end what should'nt even begin.

I told my parents that I am going to skii in Poland for a few days with my friends. It was another lie, added to this big pile of pretentious "normal life" I was living for a past month. "How were exams?" ; "How was the weekend at L***'s (my ex) house?" ; "How is K****s (my best friend) doing?" Every answer to these questions were distractions. I am feeling extremely heartbroken to leave my parents behind like that. Wrote an apologetic note, explained my actions in detail hoping that they understand me just a little bit.

I wanted to thank you guys. Your the most accepting community out there. No judgement, no criticism, just pure love for other people feeling the same way. I am just feeling down, that I haven't stumbled across this site months ago. *Hugs to you all*

Tonight, at 00:00 I am drinking SN. Gonna give u updates on this thread about my experience.
safe travels, i wish you all the peace you deserve
 
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ThisIsTheEnd

ThisIsTheEnd

Waste of oxygen
Aug 22, 2018
90
Woke up excited. Fresh, well-slept human being with the purpose. The purpose to end what should'nt even begin.

I told my parents that I am going to skii in Poland for a few days with my friends. It was another lie, added to this big pile of pretentious "normal life" I was living for a past month. "How were exams?" ; "How was the weekend at L***'s (my ex) house?" ; "How is K****s (my best friend) doing?" Every answer to these questions were distractions. I am feeling extremely heartbroken to leave my parents behind like that. Wrote an apologetic note, explained my actions in detail hoping that they understand me just a little bit.

I wanted to thank you guys. Your the most accepting community out there. No judgement, no criticism, just pure love for other people feeling the same way. I am just feeling down, that I haven't stumbled across this site months ago. *Hugs to you all*

Tonight, at 00:00 I am drinking SN. Gonna give u updates on this thread about my experience.
Good luck man! Hope it brings you peace.
 
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Ashpac

Ashpac

Lost and always will be.
Jul 22, 2018
795
Good luck. I hope it works for you. It will be my turn to use SN very soon.
 
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Retched

Retched

I see the chaos in your eyes.
Oct 8, 2018
837
I wish you all the peace you are seeking.
 
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21Neberg

21Neberg

Enlightened
Dec 17, 2018
1,624
I'm glad you've written a note, and that you have your method planned out so well.

Make this last day your best day. Personally, I'm going to eat a pizza before I go. I hope you enjoy your last day! Good luck!
 
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StreamingMySuicide

StreamingMySuicide

Loving life!! /s
Nov 21, 2018
111
I hope you get the peace you deserve.
 
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2 be or not

2 be or not

Member
Nov 25, 2018
74
Wishing you success and peace
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
Good luck! Hope it works out. Liked having u here, sorry to see u go :(
 
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End.of.the.line

Member
Sep 25, 2018
64
IMO siciude sucks but this life can suck even more so do whatever the f**k makes you happy. Good luck
 
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NoOneKnows

NoOneKnows

Specialist
Sep 12, 2018
323
May everything go as expected for you and you ll be in peace
 
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Scottishchef

Scottishchef

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Jan 17, 2019
90
Hopefully everthing goes well for you tonight and that you find a happier place to be in peace
 
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nohoper

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Dec 2, 2018
64
best wishes and may your journey be a peaceful one.
 
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HelensNepenthe

HelensNepenthe

Thoughtful poster
Jan 17, 2019
835
Safe travels.
 
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19andready

19andready

Almost Free
Jan 20, 2019
37
Best wishes to you. You deserve peace.
 
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ForestLove

ForestLove

Jus wanna be a tree
Oct 16, 2018
236
Wishing you a gentle and peaceful journey ahead.
 
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goesforemast

goesforemast

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Jan 12, 2019
35
wish you all the best and safe travels .
 
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Jai

Jai

Specialist
Sep 23, 2018
384
Woke up excited. Fresh, well-slept human being with the purpose. The purpose to end what should'nt even begin.

I told my parents that I am going to skii in Poland for a few days with my friends. It was another lie, added to this big pile of pretentious "normal life" I was living for a past month. "How were exams?" ; "How was the weekend at L***'s (my ex) house?" ; "How is K****s (my best friend) doing?" Every answer to these questions were distractions. I am feeling extremely heartbroken to leave my parents behind like that. Wrote an apologetic note, explained my actions in detail hoping that they understand me just a little bit.

I wanted to thank you guys. Your the most accepting community out there. No judgement, no criticism, just pure love for other people feeling the same way. I am just feeling down, that I haven't stumbled across this site months ago. *Hugs to you all*

Tonight, at 00:00 I am drinking SN. Gonna give u updates on this thread about my experience.
Find your path good luck and fly
 
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Pulmonicis

Pulmonicis

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Jan 1, 2019
50
You'll drift apart, it's true, but you'll be out in the open, part of everything alive again. I feel genuinely happy. Never felt this way before. Warmness from inside and cold wind , cooming through the window looks like hugs me and whispers gently to my ear how great you should feel about yourself. I love the feeling of cold waves brushing through my body.

Already drank ~0.2 liters of whisky and can tell the difference in mood. Fasted for 10hours and been on meds for 48+ hours. Antiacids doesnt feel great, do not recommend taking them for such a long time, because I though my reflux would br a thing in this process. Gosh darnin your digestive system stops responding to food, in my case. post breakfast gurgling of my stomach continued for 3hours straight :D 24 hours for antiacids and 48 hours for anti - E seems the best way to go. Still eagoursly waiting for 00:00 :p I will keep u updated*
 
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Dead Meat

Dead Meat

DOOMED
Oct 10, 2018
18,395
Wishing you a very pleasant journey and may you find everlasting peace.
 
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Pulmonicis

Pulmonicis

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Jan 1, 2019
50
Took 4*10mg of Metaclopramide as the last medicine ~50min before drinking SN.
 
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