Sunghoon
New Member
- Jul 18, 2024
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I've been actively trying to ctb for the past three years. I even have a second account on here named Sunoo, but I forgot my password, so I had to make another one. After my last failed attempt in December I got better in the last month and applied to something in the States. If I get rejected, then I lose everything since I didn't work hard last year, and now I have nothing left. If I get accepted, I'll have a reason to live, and it will open up so many opportunities and hope. But if I get rejected, I will 100% ctb. I don't care if I sound stupid—there's no more hope, and I can't live with the failure. All I can do is pray to God and hope He doesn't let me down. I'm trying to be positive and put all my faith in Jesus, but I can't help being worried, obviously. My hands are shaking while typing this. I might sound crazy, but oh well, life sucks, and everything hurts. All I can say is, wish me luck and pray for me, whether you're religious or not :(
