Freedom Believer

Freedom Believer

Forever alone.
Dec 23, 2019
351
I've been struggling on when to do it. I decided to go with my original plan of at least waiting until after the Christmas Party my family is having tomorrow. It's the least I can do for them. The last thing I want is to ruin something so important and special to them. After that there is nothing left keeping myself from CTB.
 
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Hopeindeath!

Elementalist
Dec 7, 2019
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What a kind and caring person you are. I'm sorry that life is so bad for you, and I hope whatever you decide to do you'll find peace.
 
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Freedom Believer

Freedom Believer

Forever alone.
Dec 23, 2019
351
What a kind and caring person you are. I'm sorry that life is so bad for you, and I hope whatever you decide to do you'll find peace.
Thank you. Maybe in another universe things could've been different, but now I just want to rest.
 
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cosmicpixiedust

Pixie
Jun 5, 2019
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I'm so sorry that life is so hard for you and that you are suffering so much. It's very kind and considerate of you to wait until your family has their Christmas so their holiday is not forever tainted. I hope that you find the peace that you are looking for. ❤️
 
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Freedom Believer

Freedom Believer

Forever alone.
Dec 23, 2019
351
I'm so sorry that life is so hard for you and that you are suffering so much. It's very kind and considerate of you to wait until your family has their Christmas so their holiday is not forever tainted. I hope that you find the peace that you are looking for. ❤
Hopefully I can find peace in the afterlife. If there isn't anything, then I can just rest forever (even if I'm thinking of nothing).
 
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theguineapigking

theguineapigking

Useless piece of trash
Dec 5, 2019
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Hey Freedom Believer. I'm sorry that you're suffering. I say this to people on the forum often now,and I mean it every time.


I do have to ask,are you positive you want to do this? I'm just asking that you consider deeply(I assume you already have) and ensure you truly want this and that it's not something you've started thinking in the last month or so. Once done there is no going back. I don't know if or if not there's an afterlife,but it's certainly something to take into consideration. In the case there's nothing,are you truly ready to die and cease to exist? I know existence would seem pointless anyways,but I guess that's up for debate for each individual.


Have you tried any medicines or therapist


I'm not trying to annoy you so sorry if I am. Im simply trying to be there for you. Some people rush into suicide within a month of feeling it. Others have thought long and hard for years on it. I just hope you've truly considered all variables. I know this website isn't to talk people out of suicide. I believe suicide is a right. So I'm not trying to bug you.

If you need to talk,just message me. I don't mind talking if you need. It's honestly no problem at all.

(Off topic:Btw walking dead rules! Do you like that show a lot? Have you watched all of the seasons?)

Regardless of your choice,which it seems you've already made, I hope you find peace. I truly do. I'm so sorry for all you've suffered.
 
Freedom Believer

Freedom Believer

Forever alone.
Dec 23, 2019
351
Hey Freedom Believer. I'm sorry that you're suffering. I say this to people on the forum often now,and I mean it every time.


I do have to ask,are you positive you want to do this? I'm just asking that you consider deeply(I assume you already have) and ensure you truly want this and that it's not something you've started thinking in the last month or so. Once done there is no going back. I don't know if or if not there's an afterlife,but it's certainly something to take into consideration. In the case there's nothing,are you truly ready to die and cease to exist? I know existence would seem pointless anyways,but I guess that's up for debate for each individual.


Have you tried any medicines or therapist


I'm not trying to annoy you so sorry if I am. Im simply trying to be there for you. Some people rush into suicide within a month of feeling it. Others have thought long and hard for years on it. I just hope you've truly considered all variables. I know this website isn't to talk people out of suicide. I believe suicide is a right. So I'm not trying to bug you.

If you need to talk,just message me. I don't mind talking if you need. It's honestly no problem at all.

(Off topic:Btw walking dead rules! Do you like that show a lot? Have you watched all of the seasons?)

Regardless of your choice,which it seems you've already made, I hope you find peace. I truly do. I'm so sorry for all you've suffered.

I'm sure. I never got far into the Walking Dead, but I remembered that I loved Dale and the faces he made.
 
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theguineapigking

Useless piece of trash
Dec 5, 2019
593
I'm sure. I never got far into the Walking Dead, but I remembered that I loved Dale and the faces he made.

Haha I remember him too.


Sorry for being a pain. I just wanted to try to be talkative and let you know I was there for you.

I wish you luck then on your journey. :) Peace be with you.
 
Soul

Soul

gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha
Apr 12, 2019
4,704
@Freedom Believer, I'm sorry about everything that brought you to this, but wish you only positive outcomes of your choices as you move forward. Journey well x
 
Moonicide

Moonicide

ᴘʜᴀꜱᴇꜱ ᴏꜰ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴏᴏɴ
Nov 19, 2019
802
I've wanted to ctb before Christmas and now before NYE, but something always keeps popping up. The holidays can be so triggering and exhausting, I think it's really thoughtful of you to hold out until your family is away. I know it's not easy and it requires a lot of love and strength to hold on just a bit longer... I've also noticed it is now tomorrow night... I hope you're at peace now, love. :heart:
 

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