Tomorrow is the day

[breadliker123]

I'm officially done. I'm tired of dancing around this and cowarding out last minute.

Life has gotten too hard for me already and I'm too weak to keep going.

I don't have any immediate tasks I need to do anymore, so that's good. I spent the weekend with my dad, and I'm visiting my mom some hours before I do it.
I don't have many friends, and the few I have aren't trustworthy enough for me to try and pour out my heart in some goodbye letter, so that's good too.

I'm doing partial hanging with a trusty cable that could hold me when I was 69kg (I'm 63kg now, so it'll be fine). Already found my sweet spot and have been practicing for some time. Plus, I'll be away from my sister so I won't be able to stop myself because of her like last time (that was the only time I stopped before passing out. So taking out the sister factor, I'm pretty sure it'll work)

All I have left is to finish writing the letter for my family and hopefully manage to fast before doing it.

I'm kind of scared, but thinking about the afterlife has been a good comforter. Hopefully in my next life I won't be as much of a burden as I was in this one

 

[darksouls]

I am so sorry that life has brought you to this point
hope everything goes well for you
and you find the relief you are looking for

 

[breadliker123]

I am so sorry that life has brought you to this point
hope everything goes well for you
and you find the relief you are looking for

Hopefully this time it works. Thank you for the kinds words

 

[nobodycaresaboutme]

Good luck. You are such a brave soul. I hope your plan works and your life will never hurt you anymore

 

[Alexandra_]

I wish you good luck

 

[unluckysadness]

I hope you'll find peace

 

[Eriktf]

good luck and wish you peace

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.