Today's the day

[toolateforme]

My family's fucked up and so am I. I'm the only one who can save myself and there's no way out. They will probably do the same afterwards because they're just like me in the worst way - they will be forced to take the masks off once I succeed.

I wish there was a way out, but accepting my fate makes this a lot easier, and understandable. I can keep telling myself "if only I hadn't...", but there's no way I would have known. I can't tell the future. And I can't ever take back the past. Hell, even if I had acted differently I'd probably still end up here because of the way I am. So, here I am. I know I've accepted what's to come, because I'm not even sad.

The world isn't meant for everyone, and that's okay.

 

[Bulletwbttrflywings]

My family's fucked up and so am I. I'm the only one who can save myself and there's no way out. They will probably do the same afterwards because they're just like me in the worst way - they will be forced to take the masks off once I succeed.

I wish there was a way out, but accepting my fate makes this a lot easier, and understandable. I can keep telling myself "if only I hadn't...", but there's no way I would have known. I can't tell the future. And I can't ever take back the past. Hell, even if I had acted differently I'd probably still end up here because of the way I am. So, here I am. I know I've accepted what's to come, because I'm not even sad.

The world isn't meant for everyone, and that's okay.

Hugs...

 

[Karangel25]

I feel you

 

[LaBrava]

Is there a way to separate yourself from your family?

 

[toolateforme]

Is there a way to separate yourself from your family?

By jumping off a bridge

 

[fisil]

I could relate to some of your post. Sucks that you you dropped your parents to late or realizied things to late. Good luck.

 

[Soul]

I wish the world were a compassionate place. I'm sorry you've been struggling. Whatever choice you make I wish you the best possible outcome for you. Journey well

 

[toolateforme]

I wish the world were a compassionate place. I'm sorry you've been struggling. Whatever choice you make I wish you the best possible outcome for you. Journey well

Me too. The world needs a lot more genuine compassion, not the fake kind you'll find in a lot of people. Maybe I wouldn't be here if I had some

 

[dandan]

Maybe you can do what my last "girlfriend" did?

she was adopted and her "family" gave their back when the economic situation turn out bad...
I couldn't offer her the money to live with me, i offered her my house, and food, but no more....

she went very sad to baby-sitting in Canada.... she met the "uncle" of the babies she was looking to take care...
fell in love....
and now she's living a great life in Canada, they went living together,,, could you separate from your family like that?

 

[toolateforme]

Maybe you can do what my last "girlfriend" did?

she was adopted and her "family" gave their back when the economic situation turn out bad...
I couldn't offer her the money to live with me, i offered her my house, and food, but no more....

she went very sad to baby-sitting in Canada.... she met the "uncle" of the babies she was looking to take care...
fell in love....
and now she's living a great life in Canada, they went living together,,, could you separate from your family like that?

I wish. Even if I separated from my family my condition prevents me from getting a new life on my own.

 

[dandan]

I wish. Even if I separated from my family my condition prevents me from getting a new life on my own.

wow, im so so sorry girl, then you must be in a very sad place where no options are available...
im battling with ctb desires myself, im deciding day by day to continue ( I woke up at 3am thinking it was a great time to drink my N)

I'm physically okay, are you physically okay too? <--- thats important I think

 

[Extremly kind <3]

My family's fucked up and so am I. I'm the only one who can save myself and there's no way out. They will probably do the same afterwards because they're just like me in the worst way - they will be forced to take the masks off once I succeed.

I wish there was a way out, but accepting my fate makes this a lot easier, and understandable. I can keep telling myself "if only I hadn't...", but there's no way I would have known. I can't tell the future. And I can't ever take back the past. Hell, even if I had acted differently I'd probably still end up here because of the way I am. So, here I am. I know I've accepted what's to come, because I'm not even sad.

The world isn't meant for everyone, and that's okay.

I hope I had the time machine like the one in "Back to the future" series just to correct one wrong decision that had fucked up my life forever making me resorting to CTB at the earliest:(

 

[toolateforme]

wow, im so so sorry girl, then you must be in a very sad place where no options are available...
im battling with ctb desires myself, im deciding day by day to continue ( I woke up at 3am thinking it was a great time to drink my N)

I'm physically okay, are you physically okay too? <--- thats important I think

Yeah I have no options but honestly I'm okay with it. It's strangely easy to accept once you recognize you cannot change the past.

I'm physically okay, yes. Mentally, no (clearly).

I hope I had the time machine like the one in "Back to the future" series just to correct one wrong decision that had fucked up my life forever making me resorting to CTB at the earliest:(

Boy me too!!!!

 

[dandan]

Surely me too.... if I could go back and change just 1 decision!!

 

[fisil]

Did she do it?

 

[Extremly kind <3]

Did she do it?

She was like jumping from a bridge few hours ago, but dont know if she had actually done it !!

 

[Bulletwbttrflywings]

Did she do it?

She was in the chat saying smell ya later... may peace envelope...

 

[WaterUnder]

Dolce:
Please don't tell me that I missed you!

You know, Love, I still think you're alive. Fucked up beyond belief at the moment, but here. And I'm praying that while you're looking down from that bridge (wherever you are), you're finding your worth and backing out. There are other options we can discuss.

Hang on.

 

[Kjo]

Me too. The world needs a lot more genuine compassion, not the fake kind you'll find in a lot of people. Maybe I wouldn't be here if I had some

I relate so much. It always makes me think of the quote:
"Be the change you want to see in the world."