Dani Paradox

Dani Paradox

Permanently Banned
Aug 17, 2018
981
I've put this off for long enough. I spent a year thinking I was going to go with partial suspension, and couldn't go through with it. I finally decided on CO, and I've got everything I need. I am going to be doing it inside of a tent that will be entirely sealed with trash bags, with a tarp over the top, inside of my shed. I'm going to start setting up my tent soon. Once it's all perfected and set up it's just a matter of waiting. In approximately 15 hours I will start burning my charcoal and drinking. Once it's burned down and stopped smoking, I am bringing it into the tent and going to sleep. I appreciate all of the support and encouragement I've gotten in this wonderful community, and I wish you all the best. I hope you all find peace. I'm at the end of my rope, and the clock is ticking now. I am a bit scared of failure, but logically it would be impossible for this to not work. I am scared and excited at the same time. The pain will be over soon.
 
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PsychoPyro

PsychoPyro

Chronic Pain
Jun 7, 2018
102
May peace be with you. I hope your shed is secluded enough that you are not interrupted.
 
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Dani Paradox

Dani Paradox

Permanently Banned
Aug 17, 2018
981
May peace be with you. I hope your shed is secluded enough that you are not interrupted.
Thank you <3 I likely won't even be found for probably two days. I've got nothing to worry about.
 
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Red star

Red star

Experienced
Sep 15, 2018
206
Sending love, high vibration, good feelings, protection, just everything good
 
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bigj75

bigj75

“From Knowledge springs power."
Sep 1, 2018
2,540
peace for you
 
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Candour

Candour

Student
Sep 16, 2018
113
Good luck, Dani. I hope it all goes easy & quickly for you. Can I ask what brand of charcoal you're using?
 
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Miss clefable

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Aug 23, 2018
1,577
Hugs love you
 
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Mori

Member
Oct 7, 2018
6
I don't know you well but I really really wish you luck my friend.
 
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PsychoPyro

PsychoPyro

Chronic Pain
Jun 7, 2018
102
Thank you <3 I likely won't even be found for probably two days. I've got nothing to worry about.
That is great, I wish I could just be left in peace long enough to do it.
 
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skitliv

skitliv

Le mort joyeux
Jul 11, 2018
485
Good luck to you
 
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Aesthler

Aesthler

Death is the only God who comes when you call
Sep 25, 2018
416
I hope it's swift and sweet.
 
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MistakesHappen

Escapologist
Aug 29, 2018
615
Wish you peace, good-bye. Hugs
 
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eczema

eczema

Member
Oct 6, 2018
59
good luck and may you be at peace
 
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Shewaitsforme

Arcanist
Sep 23, 2018
493
Hope you find peace.
 
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MachineGunDani

Specialist
Sep 10, 2018
336
"Come and take a walk on the wild side
Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain
You like your girls insane
Choose your last words
This is the last time
'Cause you and I, we were born to die" LDR
:kiss:
 
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Dani Paradox

Dani Paradox

Permanently Banned
Aug 17, 2018
981
Thank you so much everyone <33 I just got my tent all set up. All I've got to do now is seal up the seams, and seal the entire outside with trash bags. My tent even comes with a waterproof cover! So the CO will actually be sealed five times! I was really hoping to have my cell phone.. I was going to document all this with photos so I could actually show you guys in case anyone wanted to do it. I couldn't get one, unfortunately. But within the next few hours I will make sure it will be sealed to perfection. I've got a big roll of weather-proof duct tape to make sure the gas doesn't loosen the tape. I'm going to use that to seal all seams inside the tent, along with any small holes that I see. Then I will be taking large, thick, outdoor-use trash bags and basically wrapping the entire outside of the tent. I will use duct tape along all edges to make sure they are securely sealed. I will then put the waterproof cover over the top, and then duct tape that as well. Once all is sealed, I have a large tarp that will be wrapped over the entire tent, and tucked under the edges. The tent will be placed inside of a shed.

I will make sure to place multiple signs that say "WARNING: CARBON MONOXIDE. CALL POLICE AND HAZMAT." I will place a sign on each layer of sheeting to ensure that no one impulsively tries to enter the tent. One sign on the tarp....if the tarp is removed, there will be another on the water-proof tent cover...if that is removed, another on the garbage bags.....if someone seriously gets that far, there will be one last sign on the actual tent. I think that is being very fair and cautious. If you seriously rip your way past all those signs...that's on you. I did more than enough to warn you.

Again, I wish I had my phone so I could show you all pictures of what I am doing, but I've done my best to describe it. I'm going to start that now. Then it is just a matter of waiting until tonight. All I've got to do is fall asleep with that charcoal, man. Dani isn't waking up. At least not here, and not like this.
 
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AndyCurious

AndyCurious

Warlock
Sep 13, 2018
707
Good luck buddy, and hope you find peace :)
 
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Dani Paradox

Dani Paradox

Permanently Banned
Aug 17, 2018
981
Good luck, Dani. I hope it all goes easy & quickly for you. Can I ask what brand of charcoal you're using?
I'm using kingsford briquettes :) New old kingsford
 
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Otto

Student
Sep 10, 2018
127
Hi it sounds like you jaha everything covered.
I really hope you find the peace your seeking
 
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Dani Paradox

Dani Paradox

Permanently Banned
Aug 17, 2018
981
Hugs love you
Love you Miss Clef <3 You're such a sweet girl. Wish we could go together. I hope you find your way whatever you choose to do <333
 
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Dani Paradox

Dani Paradox

Permanently Banned
Aug 17, 2018
981
"Come and take a walk on the wild side
Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain
You like your girls insane
Choose your last words
This is the last time
'Cause you and I, we were born to die" LDR
:kiss:
I love that song by her. So funny we both have a love for Lana Del Rey lol I have every single song she ever made. All the unreleased ones and everything. This song is amazing <3
 
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ctoan

ctoan

Arcanist
Sep 30, 2018
437
see you on the other side buddy
 
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jaemus12

jaemus12

Earth’s Parasite
May 11, 2018
562
Good luck and goodbye Dani Paradox. Although not a lot, it was nice talking to you around here and on shoutbox.

Hope to see you again on the other side one day.
 
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MachineGunDani

Specialist
Sep 10, 2018
336
I love that song by her. So funny we both have a love for Lana Del Rey lol I have every single song she ever made. All the unreleased ones and everything. This song is amazing <3
I listen to her daily! She's classy but still bad ass and she's hot AF! And her voice makes me feel better!
 
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1234dave

Specialist
Oct 5, 2018
369
good luck. how quickly do you think youll be knocked out?
 
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GoingSoonish

GoingSoonish

It is what it is
Aug 19, 2018
126
Hugs Dani. I will go the same way (except in a car).
 
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Jai

Specialist
Sep 23, 2018
384
I don't know you friend but find peace in death you didn't get in this miserable life
 
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bigj75

bigj75

“From Knowledge springs power."
Sep 1, 2018
2,540
kinda wish I could do this method.
 
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lostinthedream

lostinthedream

Warlock
Sep 2, 2018
754
Infinite peace, love, and wisdom always Dani... Godspeed and may you find that which you are seeking..
 
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406blue

Specialist
Sep 7, 2018
379
I got a lot out of our exchanges in the forums. Thank you.
 
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