So today is my last day alive. I wrote a lot of different suicide notes each saying different things. I've not made my decision on which method it's going to be. My first option is to go to a truckstop and drink 2 bottles of alcohol with all the medication i own. I stab my belly 20 times and cut my wrist. I drive further to a tunnel and crash my car into the wall of the tunnel.
Second option is to hang myself in the garage.
What do you guys think?
If I'm totally honest, these choices don't look too promising. The first one sounds pretty grim and has a good chance of failing at every step, as others have said, likely to cause injury to others too.
Hanging in the garage obviously would work if done correctly
I just feel it all seems so sudden and unplanned, like an impulsive thing to do. Personally I would want to rehearse and have a viable plan with a backup having explored every other option to keep myself alive too. This seems like a reaction to something rather than the end of a long line.
Please have a good long think about things and keep coming back on here to talk it through, we are all here for you whatever you choose
