Today is the day.

[SHThrowAway213]

This is not a goodbye thread.
I will be leaving my house at 12, getting some sambuca from the shop and then getting the bus over to the cliff.
I will be listening to all my favourite bands.
When I get there, I will sit for a few minutes drinking.
I will cancel the direct debit for the mortgage so my husband (separated) will have to try and sort something out.
Then I will text him to let him know that I've done that, then I will go.
Scared and excited

 

[TheQ22]

This is not a goodbye thread.
I will be leaving my house at 12, getting some sambuca from the shop and then getting the bus over to the cliff.
I will be listening to all my favourite bands.
When I get there, I will sit for a few minutes drinking.
I will cancel the direct debit for the mortgage so my husband (separated) will have to try and sort something out.
Then I will text him to let him know that I've done that, then I will go.
Scared and excited

I read that as I'll be getting bus over the cliff!

Then noticed it's bus over to the cliff.

 

[SHThrowAway213]

I read that as I'll be getting bus over the cliff!

Then noticed it's bus over to the cliff.

Haha.
There is also a half hour walk from the bus stop to the cliff and it is chucking it down here.

 

[TheQ22]

Haha.
There is also a half hour walk from the bus stop to the cliff and it is chucking it down here.

Take it steady, if you change your mind that's okay, there's always another day.

 

[SHThrowAway213]

Take it steady, if you change your mind that's okay, there's always another day.

Thank you

 

[KleinerWolf]

This is not a goodbye thread.
I will be leaving my house at 12, getting some sambuca from the shop and then getting the bus over to the cliff.
I will be listening to all my favourite bands.
When I get there, I will sit for a few minutes drinking.
I will cancel the direct debit for the mortgage so my husband (separated) will have to try and sort something out.
Then I will text him to let him know that I've done that, then I will go.
Scared and excited

sorry I couldn't been any useful.
I hope there's a turn of events somehow,
Otherwise I wish things turn out as you expected.

if it doesn't feel right, you know we are here for you.

 

[SHThrowAway213]

sorry I couldn't been any useful.
I hope there's a turn of events somehow,
Otherwise I wish things turn out as you expected.

if it doesn't feel right, you know we are here for you.

Thank you

 

[Silver]

I read that as I'll be getting bus over the cliff!

Then noticed it's bus over to the cliff.

I read it that way too lol.

Any update @SHThrowAway213 ?

 

[AJ95]

I hope you have a painless journey @SHThrowAway213

Wishing you peace

 

[SHThrowAway213]

I read it that way too lol.

Any update @SHThrowAway213 ?

Just got on the bus.
I have bought the sambuca.
My parents wanted to watch the latest episode of the Great British Bake Off before I went off to "meet a friend "
Which is why I was a bit late leaving.

 

[Acopia]

All my love is with you.

 

[SHThrowAway213]

All my love is with you.

Thank you

 

[Acopia]

Thank you

We will always be here for you should your plans change,
if not,
we're always here for you still.

 

[SHThrowAway213]

We will always be here for you should your plans change,
if not,
we're always here for you still.

Thank you, I really appreciate it.

 

[MariV]

i hope it goes well and you find your deserved peace

 

[Ghost2211]

I'm glad I didn't miss you due to the time difference. I hope you find the peace you desire. Have a peaceful flight over the beautiful scenery.

 

[TheQ22]

Sambuca - I can't help but have the macarana song come in my head when I hear that word but it's heeeyyyy saa-aambuca.

 

[Xander_McG]

I hope you find the peace you're looking for that so evaded you in life x

 

[TheQ22]

Go home, have a hot bath, and chill out.

 

[SHThrowAway213]

I'm really sorry.
I couldn't do it.
I didn't drink anything as I thought it would look too suspicious and therefore couldn't overcome my SI.
Trying again on Thursday.

 

[BipolarGuy]

I'm really sorry.
I couldn't do it.
I didn't drink anything as I thought it would look too suspicious and therefore couldn't overcome my SI.
Trying again on Thursday.

No problem.
Hey, I don't know what issues you're facing, but please do feel free to send me a PM and we can chat about stuff.
All the best x

 

[SHThrowAway213]

No problem.
Hey, I don't know what issues you're facing, but please do feel free to send me a PM and we can chat about stuff.
All the best x

Thank you

 

[TheQ22]

You don't need to apologise, there's nothing to apologise for. This is all about you, no one else.

 

[mutato]

New guy here so I don't know your story.

Can't you at least wait until later in life when your parents are gone?
Assuming they are somewhat normal and loving as most parents are
then they don't deserve that. I'm aware that is asking for a lot especially
if you're really hurting.

 

[DyingAlf]

I'm really sorry.
I couldn't do it.
I didn't drink anything as I thought it would look too suspicious and therefore couldn't overcome my SI.
Trying again on Thursday.

You don't have to be sorry.
So many of us can relate to having SI issues.
If you do try again maybe you could put the sambucca into a different bottle.
In the meantime, try not to be too hard on yourself & take care of yourself.

———————

New guy here so I don't know your story.

Can't you at least wait until later in life when your parents are gone?
Assuming they are somewhat normal and loving as most parents are
then they don't deserve that. I'm aware that is asking for a lot especially
if you're really hurting.

F*** O** with your prolife BS!

 

[Dark Spring]

I send you a hug and much love, I hope you feel good, soon will be the day there is no hurry

 

[mutato]

I will absolutely not be doing that DyingAlf.

I might CTB myself in the future. I'm in my 40s. Parents gone. No family.
Have a bottle of N myself :)

 

[CrazyMary]

Been through the same, just when I was about to take the SN I got a text message. That was April 22. Something similar happened in march, so I could say I have experience on it. Hope things get better for you and you don´t need to do it anymore. If you want to talk send me a PM

 

[DyingAlf]

I will absolutely not be doing that DyingAlf.

I might CTB myself in the future. I'm in my 40s. Parents gone. No family.
Have a bottle of N myself :)

Good for you!
In the meantime, don't bother with putting guilt trips on other members! That kind of thing is not welcome here!

 

[mutato]

What is worse? Guilt trips or passive encouragement?