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failedjedi
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- Sep 8, 2020
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My SN hopefully arrived. I can see a small package in mailmans hand when he walked by my security camera!
I'm finishing my shift at work. Which is bitter sweet because I do like the people I work with and it's such an odd feeling knowing I'm going to be gone in a few hours and they have no idea.
We are about 4 hours away from taking the prerequisites and about 4.5 to 5 from taking the SN.
I'm so excited. I'm still debating writing a new letter to my mom that's a little different just in case I end up surviving for whatever reason, but I'm pretty happy with the letter I wrote after ordering the SN.
If all goes to plan I'll be found about 2 hours after drinking it. I hope that's enough time to actually be gone.
I just can't get over the excitement. My last 2 attempts still took a ton of courage to actually follow through. But I don't have that nervousness or doubt this time. Just pure excitement. After the aftermath of my last 2 it only confirmed I have no one and this is the right decision. I wish the other times would have shown me how much people do care, but it showed me the opposite. I can't freaking wait.
My biggest thing is this place has been such a resource in just the few days since I found it so I want to try to keep people informed as much as I can. Not about me but the process. There seems to be mixed messages on how common headache or stomach pain is and such. So if possible I want to try to provide as much info about the experience as I can before I'm gone.
I just hope to finally find peace. I'm perfectly fine with a little pain or discomfort if it's brief and I'm gone fast.
I'm finishing my shift at work. Which is bitter sweet because I do like the people I work with and it's such an odd feeling knowing I'm going to be gone in a few hours and they have no idea.
We are about 4 hours away from taking the prerequisites and about 4.5 to 5 from taking the SN.
I'm so excited. I'm still debating writing a new letter to my mom that's a little different just in case I end up surviving for whatever reason, but I'm pretty happy with the letter I wrote after ordering the SN.
If all goes to plan I'll be found about 2 hours after drinking it. I hope that's enough time to actually be gone.
I just can't get over the excitement. My last 2 attempts still took a ton of courage to actually follow through. But I don't have that nervousness or doubt this time. Just pure excitement. After the aftermath of my last 2 it only confirmed I have no one and this is the right decision. I wish the other times would have shown me how much people do care, but it showed me the opposite. I can't freaking wait.
My biggest thing is this place has been such a resource in just the few days since I found it so I want to try to keep people informed as much as I can. Not about me but the process. There seems to be mixed messages on how common headache or stomach pain is and such. So if possible I want to try to provide as much info about the experience as I can before I'm gone.
I just hope to finally find peace. I'm perfectly fine with a little pain or discomfort if it's brief and I'm gone fast.