Today is the day before my mum died tomorrow, last year.

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My wife was supposed to go visit family some hundreds of miles away in several hours time on the train (15th) and I had planned to ctb on the day my mum died (16th). I have my SN and my meto finally arrived. Now that's a spanner in the works. I may have to visit the hospital my mum died in and donate a sum of money as they had a board on the wall with figures on for Alzheimer's wander alarms for the ward in memory of mummy. I might take my SN at this time.

I'm annoyed my wife and kids can't make the trip cos one of my daughters has came down with god damn COVID and so wife doesn't want to introduce it to her elderly grandmother. FML.

I'm sick of being the bad person having people point fingers at me and suffering this god awful life.

Just watched 24 hours in A&E and some guy od'd on crack heroin quetiapine mirtazapine and other drugs and he shared the same view as me of being at wits end of this fucked up life.

 

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my condolences to you for the loss of your mother.

I hope she's in a better place. I'm not religious or spiritual, but perhaps there is something beyond this life, and I hope you are given the opportunity to reunite with her one day.

I hope you find peace.