To think that out of millions of sperms, i had to be the one to make it

[LastDayOnEarth]

I mean seriously, maybe if only my parents had done the act just minutes before they actually did it I wouldn't have existed, someone else would've but definitely not me specifically

I wish I had lost the race, it would've been a victory in the long-term

 

[Renato]

I think about that way more than I would like to admit. I also wonder what would have happened if I was born with the exact same character and traits but of the opposite sex: I know it doesn't make sense probably but still it's a fantasy I indulge with.

 

[L1feless]

like why did i have to be born as me specifically, sometimes i wish that i could be literally anyone else.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

it's not only that. it's also every ancestor of mine had to live long enough to reproduce have sex ( disgusting) with the sperm each time , your parents parents . and their parents all the way to a monkey ancestor then to a rat like ancestor that was the ancestor of me and all mammals and before that 3 billion years of evolution. and the formation of the DNA molecule

if you add up all the probablities of this horror called "me" and my brain and this nightmare existing the odds are a number so large it would be a 1 with a book of zeros after pages of pages. all that to produce hell absolute nightmare for me.

i am that unlucky to be born. it's quadrillions of times to the trillion times power more unlucky than winning a powerball but the opposite

its a horrific abomination horrible beyond imagination

but i can undo it all with just a pull of a trigger undo this hell

 

[iamanavalanche]

we all are the cum that won

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

we all are the cum that won

i consider me losing immersed into hell

 

[Namelesa]

Something i wonder is why do we first say we are sperm when there is also an egg? Technically are we first 2 separate parts put together and one part could be of a million different options (the sperm) and the other there is only one option (the egg). So would 50% of me be same and the other 50% could potentially be different from the sperm that got to the egg? Probably means whoever was created would have suffered similar to me sadly cus of 50% of whoever being from the egg

 

[lil dwayne]

Or if they just put a fucking rubber on, the world would be better off. I think the only good thing thats ever come from my life is I was such a shit kid my parents said they would never have another one.

 

[contentedlyplanning]

I mean seriously, maybe if only my parents had done the act just minutes before they actually did it I wouldn't have existed, someone else would've but definitely not me specifically

I wish I had lost the race, it would've been a victory in the long-term

I think about this a lot. It leaves me feeling very confused.

Also, my mom had three miscarriages before she had me. I think a lot about the fact that if any of them had survived, she wouldn't have had me. I wish for that.

 

[moribundwhispers]