Discussion To the trans people on this site, how much does dysphoria impact your life?

[Kokonoe]

My dysphoria has been a major source of pain in my life and a primary reason for why I plan to CTB. I was curious as to how many other fellow trans folk are here due to their struggles with dysphoria, or how they experience it, and anything else trans related I suppose.

 

[SuicidalTiger]

I will preface this by saying I am not trans; I am a cis, gay male in a commited relationship.
My partner has GD and has suffered greatly for it, he thinks of himself as ugly and hideous, even if I love him to the stars and back. He has repressed since before we met (six years)
He likes when I call him a "My girl", "Princess" or our pet names for eachother, his is "Panda" guess what mine is?
I am present in a few 4chan / trans spaces, and the overwhelming attitude is one of self-hatred, self-cruetly, suicide and misery. I have been there for some peoples darkest days
I have a friend on discord, named S... She seems relativly stable, more-so than even I. She transitioned, and from the way she talks she passes. Though she has some horror stories to tell.

I am not privy to the inner most workings of being trans, but GD seems like it will kill you if given the chance.

 

[ToastInTheShell]

Ye I'm the same. GD is one of the biggest reasons I'm here.

The self-hatred is really hard to deal with every day, and I get people reminding me of my shitty body every day. My parents especially "compliment" me on how big my shoulders are and how tall I am, when they know I'm trans and that it hurts me when they say that sorta shit. All they do is help to make the GD like 10x worse.

The knowledge that I'll always feel this way, even if I did transition, is why I'm here. There's no hope of me ever passing, and I'll always feel like shit. If I did transition, best case scenario I'll still feel bad and I'll get double takes when I walk down the road. Worst case: I get hate-crimed and maybe fucking murdered, and that's if transitioning isn't outlawed by the time I get off the waiting list.

For me at least, none of it's worth the trouble. I'd rather just give up.