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moldyara2002

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I own a gun. Shield ez 9mm, and hollow point bullets. But I have never shot it or any gun before. I worry about recoil and such. Since turning and holding it toward your head would be an awkward angle to hold it at. But at point blank range how hard can it really be. Would it be too stupid to choose this method without practice shooting it?
 
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Congrats on getting it. Big first step. Idk I plan to practice at a range first. I think it's best I've seen videos where the recoil was pretty bad. I do get what you're saying that it really shouldn't matter point blank though.
 
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Congrats on getting it. Big first step. Idk I plan to practice at a range first. I think it's best I've seen videos where the recoil was pretty bad. I do get what you're saying that it really shouldn't matter point blank though.
Yes that was the most difficult part. Didn't think I'd manage to be on the other side of that hurdle, but I'm there now. My mindset was that I was never gonna get past the polygraph test or their interrogation, Lol. But it was easier than I could have imagined. Where I live and the shop I went to, I was in and out in 10 minutes, no questions asked, just filling out paperwork at the counter. I was able to purchase it online through the shop's inventory website which made it even faster.
 
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I own a gun. Shield ez 9mm, and hollow point bullets. But I have never shot it or any gun before. I worry about recoil and such. Since turning and holding it toward your head would be an awkward angle to hold it at. But at point blank range how hard can it really be. Would it be too stupid to choose this method without practice shooting it?
Are you able to go to a gun range or take a gun safety course so you're more comfortable with the gun? I'm planning to purchase a 12G shotgun for my ctb. Just can't gather the courage to actually go to the gun store and buy it. I live in very gun friendly, southern US state
 
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Are you able to go to a gun range or take a gun safety course so you're more comfortable with the gun? I'm planning to purchase a 12G shotgun for my ctb. Just can't gather the courage to actually go to the gun store and buy it. I live in very gun friendly, southern US state
Social anxiety prevents me from doing a lot of things like that. It was a huge accomplishment going to the gun shop and walking out with the gun. It took me over a year of reading, research, and building the nerve to go do it. Me I live in a woodsy northern hunting state
 
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Social anxiety prevents me from doing a lot of things like that. It was a huge accomplishment going to the gun shop and walking out with the gun. It took me over a year of reading, research, and building the nerve to go do it. Me I live in a woodsy northern hunting state
I give you a LOT of credit for having the courage to buy the gun.
 
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I own a gun. Shield ez 9mm, and hollow point bullets. But I have never shot it or any gun before. I worry about recoil and such. Since turning and holding it toward your head would be an awkward angle to hold it at. But at point blank range how hard can it really be. Would it be too stupid to choose this method without practice shooting it?
Hello,

as a long time shooter and gunsmith, I was training a lot of people who were shooting for first time.
It is easy. For most people is hard to hit something, but if you are shoting at point blank, no problem.
Good idea is to try shooting, at least few rounds, to get confident with handling a gun. Or at least take empty cartridge (with a bullet but without gunpowder) and practice handling the gun at home to gain confidence.
Once you feel confident enough about how to operate a gun, you are ready for this part.
Now, ammunition - hollow point is right choice. That's it.
Recoil - don't worry. It will no affect the trajectory of the bullet. You can check YouTube videos where people are shooting guns with big recoil and hitting things without problem. When you start to feel recoil, bullet already left the barrel.
Angle. This is more about anatomy than about gun itself. Just study the anatomy of head and skull, find the spots, touch your head so you can feel that you are on the right spot (the skull is not smooth, there are lots of elevations and deepenings) and you will find out which spot will be ok for you.

Basically, this is it.
This is only for educational purposes only. Do not use this text as a instructions how to act to cause harm ort self harm.
 
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I give you a LOT of credit for having the courage to buy the gun.
Thank you, it was a serious goal and obstacle
Hello,

as a long time shooter and gunsmith, I was training a lot of people who were shooting for first time.
It is easy. For most people is hard to hit something, but if you are shoting at point blank, no problem.
Good idea is to try shooting, at least few rounds, to get confident with handling a gun. Or at least take empty cartridge (with a bullet but without gunpowder) and practice handling the gun at home to gain confidence.
Once you feel confident enough about how to operate a gun, you are ready for this part.
Now, ammunition - hollow point is right choice. That's it.
Recoil - don't worry. It will no affect the trajectory of the bullet. You can check YouTube videos where people are shooting guns with big recoil and hitting things without problem. When you start to feel recoil, bullet already left the barrel.
Angle. This is more about anatomy than about gun itself. Just study the anatomy of head and skull, find the spots, touch your head so you can feel that you are on the right spot (the skull is not smooth, there are lots of elevations and deepenings) and you will find out which spot will be ok for you.

Basically, this is it.
This is only for educational purposes only. Do not use this text as an instructions how to act to cause harm ort self harm.
Thank you for taking the time to write this. It gives me a little bit more peace of mind yet
 
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