darkSea

darkSea

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Mar 7, 2024
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I have about 14 different health issues I could be trying to figure out / improve. Instead, I'm spending day after day trying to put together a ctb insurance plan when they finally overwhelm me. I already can barely fucking type that much per day because my armpit is fucked on my right side, and my elbow is fucked on my left side. Plus my fucking back makes it so I can't sit. And now I have plantar fasciitis from standing at my desk. So I'll leave it at that. THIS FUCKING BLOWS.
 
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unabletocope

I'd like to shut down
Mar 13, 2024
728
I feel you

I am trying to figure out a way to die with as much dignity as I can salvage, my depression is currently very intense and really affects me doing that/putting it all together while not even feeling sure my preferred method would even work
 
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theboy

theboy

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Yes, it is difficult to find the right way
 
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strangelife

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Feb 16, 2024
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Sometimes diseases get so bad and treatment turns out to be ineffective, then even continuing treatment, you start thinking and planning CTB, because you already understand that there is no chance to be cured, somewhere deep down you hope for a miracle, but reality does not leave you
 
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Pluto00

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Especially considering most of us have severe depression/anxiety which makes it so much more insanely difficult to take so much time to read and be able to learn in this state. Trying to learn about the inert gas method is exhausting .

If only there was something so easy you wouldn't even have to stress about it. Just wake up, go to the proper location and press a button for a quick painless sleep:

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darkSea

darkSea

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Sometimes diseases get so bad and treatment turns out to be ineffective, then even continuing treatment, you start thinking and planning CTB, because you already understand that there is no chance to be cured, somewhere deep down you hope for a miracle, but reality does not leave you
Exactly, and it's also discouraging when the medical system fails time and again, grossly incompetent. Also, I'm sorry you're experiencing that. It's all so outrageous. Not just medical stuff, but life and death and how our society deals with it
Especially considering most of us have severe depression/anxiety which makes it so much more insanely difficult to take so much time to read and be able to learn in this state. Trying to learn about the inert gas method is exhausting .

If only there was something so easy you wouldn't even have to stress about it. Just wake up, go to the proper location and press a button for a quick painless sleep:

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This would be a better world. Maybe take some impulsiveness out of having it on a street corner, but yeah.

I do feel like inert gas method might be the best now, but I'm still learning about different methods each day
I feel you

I am trying to figure out a way to die with as much dignity as I can salvage, my depression is currently very intense and really affects me doing that/putting it all together while not even feeling sure my preferred method would even work
I find I'm sacrificing more and more of what my ideal death would be due to practical health problems. Like, I'd like to write lots of people letters, but I just don't have the physical stamina. It sounds like it's emotional stamina hamstringing you… do you mind if I ask what your preferred method is?
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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That must be so horrible and tiring what you are going through, to me it's beyond cruel how there is no limit as to how much one can suffer in this existence yet we cannot all have the option to easily die in peace, it really shouldn't be so difficult to die. But anyway best wishes.
 
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unabletocope

I'd like to shut down
Mar 13, 2024
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I find I'm sacrificing more and more of what my ideal death would be due to practical health problems. Like, I'd like to write lots of people letters, but I just don't have the physical stamina. It sounds like it's emotional stamina hamstringing you… do you mind if I ask what your preferred method is?
sure, I'd like to message people too but I think in my case I feel so unpopular and disliked that it would be more a case of hitting back at people as opposed to connecting so my stance is I'd rather just isolate myself away as much as I can and create my own space to die. Overdosing with sleeping tablets, I've considered hanging partially as well
 
disabledlife

disabledlife

Arcanist
Jun 5, 2020
411
I am in the same situation as you, I see that my health is deteriorating more and more, removing the prospect of a peaceful CTB, or even a CTB. No one wants to accompany me to Switzerland, for an assisted suicide, and I'm afraid, too, that it will cost me too much! In fact, the Swiss franc has increased in value, compared to other currencies, unless you work and live in Switzerland, outright, and benefit from assisted suicide by local associations, much cheaper, and at its home, hence the obligation to come and live in Switzerland, for the end of life!

This is why many pro-choice people are fighting to legalize euthanasia, that is to say a death given by a doctor, or another person in the medical field (such as a nurse), at the request of the patient, who wishes to leave life. .

A CTB, which can be done alone, in complete autonomy, discretion (in the case of a country, a family, etc., authoritarian, punitive), but at your own risk, therefore not necessarily without pain, and risks of survive (with the consequences of suffering, being forcibly committed to a psychiatric hospital, being harassed, rejected, treated as crazy, imbecile, traitor, coward...)!

Unlike CTB, euthanasia is subject to the appreciation of others, who often decide for you, and very often leads to refusals (opposition from doctors, relatives, pro-lifers, etc.)!

We are lucky that this forum exists, a forum which promotes autonomy and tries, as best it can, to promote an autonomous CTB, to avoid scams, being caught in the act of a CTB ( and punished for it), but while remaining as peaceful as possible, without suffering, and trying to avoid chances of survival, with the consequences I cited above.

And, for people who want to survive, live better, a recovery session, like paillative care!

I would like that, everywhere in the world, without exceptions, and without the need to justify reasons, illnesses, illnesses with near death, without the need to be subject to paternalists (like doctors, relatives, families), we could have access to Euthanasia, assisted suicide, peaceful CTB, at any time, with a right to change your mind at any time!

It is the ultimate freedom, no one else has the right to decide for the other, it is a strictly personal choice for reasons, suffering, even psychiatric only, which are real suffering, handicaps !

Here again, when we only suffer from psychiatric pathologies, we refuse you all help, all social inclusion, etc., and even the right to die peacefully at any time!

In 2024, despite the evolution of society, psychiatry still has prejudices, rejections, contempt, etc., and this is getting worse now, especially with social networks, the last generations who are much more intolerant towards others, norms social, fashions, narcissism, consumerism, the constant competition of who is stronger than the other, who is more beautiful than the other, who is more intelligent than the other, who is richer than the other, etc. !
 
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ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,202
I relate. Planning ctb is so difficult and there are so many factors to consider because of how pro life society is. Either way, I hope you find peace soon
 
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