Lucifer'sRight
Experienced
- Feb 4, 2020
- 256
when you're high - life almost happens at a few levels at once, all problems are solvable, including ancient existential problems, you're not egotistical, but you want to be able to learn anything, because someone might use it someday, challenges are exciting, challenges are what you normally in your depressive state consider devastating tragedies, you're not overly self-absorbed but you see and enjoy all the gestures you make, the tone of your voice, your social thoughts, what you ask the world instantly answers, just as if it'd know what you're thinking, synchronicity everywhere, you're focused, you're responsive, you read people's thoughts, things unfold on their own, all you need to do is just gently focus your mind in a certain direction, and again - the world - normally a pit of despair, a pile of emptiness and shit - so interesting, mysterious and definitely going forward, you could even be happy if they'd lock you in prison, because you're UNCONDITIONAL. you're build of infinite energy that can take on any form. there's infinite personalities in you, but you're coherent, you're you, you're authentic. you're waiting for yourself to happen everyday, happy to reject and destroy and let go, because it is POSSIBLE for something completely new to happen. because true purity is possible. spontaneity is your nature, and what matters is only the moments you give and take. people - you've got fair judgement, no one to distrust because your root, your intuition is there to point out anything you need to know, for the lack of a better term you're the offspring of goddesses and gods. you don't need drugs, you're independent of failure, because failure can only happen on the outside, and you're already whole and safely cradled in your deep inside...
until you're not. something reminds you of something else, and before you know it you're rotting away in your bed. you deteriorate, but without end. you're being destroyed continuously, but there isn't a sweet climax in it, no death. no relief. just goblins gnawing at your flesh. so... where did it go? where did you go?
where's the world that you know? how is possible that the most of you lays dormant underneath?
but obviously society has already decided, no question about the nature of reality there. you're manic depressive, that's all. none of this was real, you're just sick. you just need to start feeling normal and behave. so..
please feel free to share your manic depressive experiences and the judgement, the conclusions you have about them. anything you can. I'll gladly read it no matter how long. details appreciated as well. ♡♡♡
until you're not. something reminds you of something else, and before you know it you're rotting away in your bed. you deteriorate, but without end. you're being destroyed continuously, but there isn't a sweet climax in it, no death. no relief. just goblins gnawing at your flesh. so... where did it go? where did you go?
where's the world that you know? how is possible that the most of you lays dormant underneath?
but obviously society has already decided, no question about the nature of reality there. you're manic depressive, that's all. none of this was real, you're just sick. you just need to start feeling normal and behave. so..
please feel free to share your manic depressive experiences and the judgement, the conclusions you have about them. anything you can. I'll gladly read it no matter how long. details appreciated as well. ♡♡♡