Tired of being poor

[Skyyyfarer 26]

I cannot afford to move out and have to live with my abusive family and have no money cannot afford my own medication either
I have to get a job but I don't know who will hire me because I am slow and don't have much education or skills
I really don't want to live anymore and wish I had ctb when I was a teenager because atleast i wouldn't have to deal with unemployment and wouldn't have had to move back in with my family
I wish there were more peaceful ways to go
I have considered hanging but I'm not confident that I'll be able to execute it correctly

 

[jbear824]

I know what poverty is like. It's torture. It's the punishment society condemns us to if we can't adequately participate in the capitalist hellscape that we're in. And no one cares. There is pretty universal animosity and hatred towards the poor, and the homeless, all over the world. If you're poor, you're seen and treated as undesirable trash. But the cruel irony is, we're forbidden from access to easy, peaceful suicide.

Like, people want the poor and homeless to die, but only under the condition that it be long, agonizing, and traumatic. again, to punish us for not having stupid money.

It's fucked up. I can't work because of my mental illness. I rely on the gov to just to be alive on the basics. And that assistance is constantly under attack.

I'm so sorry you have an abusive family. I did too. I hope that you can get away from them someday soon. I know the agony of being forced to be around abusive people. If you decide to pursue something, I wish you peace and rest. I hope an opportunity presents itself for you to get out and away from these people who mistreat you.

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be dreadful being trapped in that situation, I find it so inhumane how suicide isn't easier for suffering people, existence really is too cruel. But anyway best wishes.

 

[aGoodDayToDie]

Heah being poor sucks. No choices.

 

[nood11]

It's takes money to do absolutely everything in our capitalist system. For those who can't, won't, or don't work for whatever reasons life is much more difficult. I'm one of them.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Have you started looking for work? I agree- it's really tough. I just don't know what it would be like setting out now. I have the opposite problem that I'm older and my skills are really not very useful for most companies. I suspect they would much prefer to employ younger, fitter people that they think will stay with them longer being paid peanuts.

I don't want to pry into your health conditions but it isn't always an automatic rejection. Companies are obliged to adhere to equal opportunities- so long as you're honest with them to begin with. I've even worked for companies that have made special ammendments to equipment in order to employ people with disabilities.

Still- I do understand your fears. The workplace can feel really daunting. I've found it really difficult sometimes. Often really. I struggle a lot with confidence and I feel socially anxious.

 

[Sweet Tart]

I'm also stuck staying with emotionally abusive family because I'm too depressed and traumatized to work. I used to be independent and never thought I'd be in this situation, especially at my age (40s). Everyone is impatient for me to "get better" and get back to my old self. I will never be that person again, due to trauma experienced in my old field.

I don't EVER want to be the person I used to be. I allowed myself to stay in jobs where I was poorly treated, poorly paid, and experienced trauma on a regular basis due to the nature of the work. I don't know how else to be or what else I can do for work. I panic when I think about doing any kind of job.

 

[Skyyyfarer 26]

Have you started looking for work? I agree- it's really tough. I just don't know what it would be like setting out now. I have the opposite problem that I'm older and my skills are really not very useful for most companies. I suspect they would much prefer to employ younger, fitter people that they think will stay with them longer being paid peanuts.

I don't want to pry into your health conditions but it isn't always an automatic rejection. Companies are obliged to adhere to equal opportunities- so long as you're honest with them to begin with. I've even worked for companies that have made special ammendments to equipment in order to employ people with disabilities.

Still- I do understand your fears. The workplace can feel really daunting. I've found it really difficult sometimes. Often really. I struggle a lot with confidence and I feel socially anxious.

exactly the companies want people they don't have to give any benefits to and pay little to nothing. For people like me who have no experience or much education even a job like that is hard to get. I don't have much skills or education and I can't see any bright side for me in this system