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irregularreconcile

irregularreconcile

i'm such a coward; these wretched things i do
Jun 15, 2023
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Haha, it's Friday the 13th, huh?

Today I'm really exhausted. Depression is keeping me in bed despite my partner wanting me to get up. Not sure what to do about that. I'd like to do some art today if I can. I'm frozen, so I'm not sure.

Yesterday evening was spent crying mostly. I know in a few years I'll end up CTBing regardless, but it still aches so much that I wasn't given a chance to exist without a destroyed family. I think I could have been something incredible, and maybe I'll leave something worthy in the art world before my time is up in the future, but my abilities and talents are no match for my illnesses.

Right now I'm just listening to music and procrastinating not getting up. Maybe I'll have some art to share sometime this week.

Lots of love to everyone ^_^
 
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