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Lady Laudanum

Lady Laudanum

Professional idiot
May 9, 2024
893
Title is self-explanatory.

I started working in healthcare again fairly recently, in EMS. Drug tests are unlikely after I already secured the job, but still possible. Failing drug tests is not an option, hence why I've been sober.

I'm allergic to caffeine and it does nothing for me except make me more tired and feel sick. I had a coke habit for quite a long time because of that, but kicked it and don't plan to start again.

Any advice?

Please don't tell me "therapy." I've burned through basically every bridge there is, when it comes to finding therapists. I'm looking for actionable advice that I can do without having to go to a mental health professional.
 
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Kali_Yuga13

Kali_Yuga13

Warlock
Jul 11, 2024
737
This PDF is one of the best things I've read describing cocaine addiction. I believe it's an excerpt from "The Cocaine Recovery Workbook" by Paul Earley MD.

In terms of specific tactics to overcome cravings, exercise, avoid any media (movies, music, documentary vids) as visual queues are a big trigger. Also refrain from euphoric recall of past use.

 
Crematoryy

Crematoryy

Wandering endlessly
Feb 12, 2025
142
I've been addicted to pornography for 8 years and there's nothing I can do to undo this neuroplastic cycle of brain addiction. If you can maintain abstinence, you've proven your strength is godlike. I'm a prisoner of this body that doesn't obey me and doesn't belong to me. In my case, there are two addictions: (1) The audio-visual stimulus of pornography; (2) The neurochemical substance of orgasm. I can even go months without consuming any videos or images, but my brain resorts to its memories to create erotic dreams that synthesize what I consumed. Regarding the neurochemical substance, I believe it's impossible to deal with. My cocaine is my own neurological hormones.

If I had a sexual partner, I would have a chance to overcome my pornography addiction. I could contain the impulse to search for nude scenes with my willpower, and obtain momentary relief at the peak of abstinence with my spouse. But that's not going to happen.
 
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Grog

Grog

*grumble grumble*
Jun 3, 2025
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Title is self-explanatory.

I started working in healthcare again fairly recently, in EMS. Drug tests are unlikely after I already secured the job, but still possible. Failing drug tests is not an option, hence why I've been sober.

I'm allergic to caffeine and it does nothing for me except make me more tired and feel sick. I had a coke habit for quite a long time because of that, but kicked it and don't plan to start again.

Any advice?

Please don't tell me "therapy." I've burned through basically every bridge there is, when it comes to finding therapists. I'm looking for actionable advice that I can do without having to go to a mental health professional.
People can't kick these habits without help. Rehab is needed.
 
Lady Laudanum

Lady Laudanum

Professional idiot
May 9, 2024
893
People can't kick these habits without help. Rehab is needed.
I'm already sober and I've been sober for a while but I still experience cravings (note the distinction between cravings and true physiological withdrawal). At this point I don't think rehab is the way to go anymore.

I probably should have been more clear in my initial post but I'm already sober and it's the cravings that are my main concern now.
If you can maintain abstinence, you've proven your strength is godlike.
That's debatable. If I wasn't scared of getting fired from my job after failing a drug test, I'd probably still be using.
 
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