Venting time

[maidens]

days start and then they end. it feels like every day is 15 minutes long and that's pushing it. I don't remember yesterday at all other than a few videos I watched. I genuinely can't believe we're this far into the year, I feel like throwing up every time I realize it's not february - april anymore

and I can't go back either. I can scream and cry and beg beg beg beg beg beg until I lose my voice but nothing will happen anf it'd just be more wasted time. who would I be begging to anyways? I say and think "please let me go back" all the time but who is that to? god does not exist. I will never be able to go back. I wish time machines weren't something that can only exist in fiction.

my life will be over before I know it if I don't just ctb. I'll be elderly and wondering which day will be my last and that's horrifying. I want to stop time I want time machines to be real I want to fix everything I hate how it's all going by so fast

every day is the exact same with a few small differences. all I do is stare at a screen all day, listen to music, cook every now and then, eat, and tne only days that don't just get completely wiped from my memory arw the times I actually go out and do something. hell I don't remember what I was foing an hour ago

I'm trapped, all of us are trapped anf time cnsnot be stopped or reversed

 

[uncat_]

I understand that, but I feel as though every day will never end. I spend every day waiting for it to end, and by the time it does, I realize I haven't done anything worthwhile. The only things that seem to get me out of the house are school, friends, and weed, and those are getting boring and almost pointless. Every day is excruciatingly long, and ends so fast.