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maidens
" more dead than alive, I endure it "
- Aug 27, 2023
- 137
days start and then they end. it feels like every day is 15 minutes long and that's pushing it. I don't remember yesterday at all other than a few videos I watched. I genuinely can't believe we're this far into the year, I feel like throwing up every time I realize it's not february - april anymore
and I can't go back either. I can scream and cry and beg beg beg beg beg beg until I lose my voice but nothing will happen anf it'd just be more wasted time. who would I be begging to anyways? I say and think "please let me go back" all the time but who is that to? god does not exist. I will never be able to go back. I wish time machines weren't something that can only exist in fiction.
my life will be over before I know it if I don't just ctb. I'll be elderly and wondering which day will be my last and that's horrifying. I want to stop time I want time machines to be real I want to fix everything I hate how it's all going by so fast
every day is the exact same with a few small differences. all I do is stare at a screen all day, listen to music, cook every now and then, eat, and tne only days that don't just get completely wiped from my memory arw the times I actually go out and do something. hell I don't remember what I was foing an hour ago
I'm trapped, all of us are trapped anf time cnsnot be stopped or reversed
and I can't go back either. I can scream and cry and beg beg beg beg beg beg until I lose my voice but nothing will happen anf it'd just be more wasted time. who would I be begging to anyways? I say and think "please let me go back" all the time but who is that to? god does not exist. I will never be able to go back. I wish time machines weren't something that can only exist in fiction.
my life will be over before I know it if I don't just ctb. I'll be elderly and wondering which day will be my last and that's horrifying. I want to stop time I want time machines to be real I want to fix everything I hate how it's all going by so fast
every day is the exact same with a few small differences. all I do is stare at a screen all day, listen to music, cook every now and then, eat, and tne only days that don't just get completely wiped from my memory arw the times I actually go out and do something. hell I don't remember what I was foing an hour ago
I'm trapped, all of us are trapped anf time cnsnot be stopped or reversed