Time will tell

[Churaak]

I have access to SN with the highest purity from chemical company.
I could order it and go to get it in person, which means no possible interception like when the delivery is used.
I got SN intercepted 3 times by my family when I ordered it online already.
I have seriously attempted suicide 2 times, 1 which I almost died and ended in a hospital.
I am trapped between the feelings of wanting to try and wanting to die.
Maybe if I drop out from university, it will be the tipping point.

 

[WornOutLife]

Yes, that might be the tipping point.
Since I became a NEET, I wanna CTB every day. The only reason keeping me in this world is my family.