StarryStarry
Cat Lady
- Oct 25, 2021
- 750
Well, I knew it would come to this - it always has - it always will. Tried so hard to find a job (after 5 months without a job and without unemployment). If you've read any of my previous posts the asshole I worked for freaked out on me back in late August because I asked him to call the office. He started cursing telling me, "I don't give a fuck about your itty bitty feelings," just a bunch of shit so I tried to get unemployment and he lied and said he never cursed at me. The dumbass at the UE office believed him. My entire life has consisted of people fucking me over in one way or another. I found out recently that my ex-husband molested my little girl and that is why she took her own life. He of course got away with it - yes I do say that he killed her because he did. So I was offered a job 3,000 miles away, but I can't afford to move. It's just one thing after another. It will never end - this misery, the tears, the loneliness it will never end. I want to be with my little girl. My plans are set. I'm getting rid of everything I own (giving it to a charity), I'll make sure my cat has enough food and water to last two weeks. I'm going to send a letter to the office manager to contact my cat's vet and she will take her. Then I'm getting into my car and driving to where my little girl is. I'm going to buy her a bunch of beautiful flowers and put them on her grave. Then I'm going to make arrangements for me. Then I'm going to ctb. FUCK THIS WORLD AND THE PEOPLE IN IT. I've had enough pain to last a lifetime. I'm so ready to leave.