Story Time to go

[Average Joe]

I believe it is time to go.
I have thought of suicide for 11 years. Having no more doubts I am truly sure that this has to happen.

I apologize for any pain I am going to cause, to myself, my family, the police, that person that finds me, the nurses and whoever else.

Suicide Plan Method:
Exanguination Equipment:
* No.10 Scalpel
* Aspirin
* Alcohol
Location: Mountains
Plan: Take Aspirin and Alcohol beforehand (not researched this yet)
Make way to mountain undetected and find somewhere comfy and well hidden.
Slice/sever three main points which are:
* Neck - External jugular & carotid artery
* Inner right thigh - Femoral artery
* Wrists - radial artery
This will start to bleed and quickly induce a state of hypovolemia. The estimated amount of blood in my body is 6900 mls. I need to lose at least 40% to go into Stage IV hypovolemic shock which is 2760mls for me.

Hypovolemic shock:

Mild symptoms can include:

• headache
• fatigue
• nausea
• profuse sweating
• dizziness

Severe symptoms, which must be taken seriously and warrant emergency medical attention, include:

• cold or clammy skin
• pale skin
• rapid, shallow breathing
• rapid heart rate
• little or no urine output
• confusion
• weakness
• weak pulse
• blue lips and fingernails
• lightheadedness
• loss of consciousness

If untreated, I will drift in and out of consciousness, blood will shut off and starve my organs of blood, heart attack & coma will soon follow suit

Aspirin and alcohol should help to overcome some clotting/coagulation and help deafen the survival instinct in me.

 

[contemplatingjaahil]

Hey I want to slice my neck too. Im afraid it will be really painful. Can u tell me more?

 

[Average Joe]

Hey I want to slice my neck too. Im afraid it will be really painful. Can u tell me more?

Hi there, I don't want to rain on your parade but it will excrutiating. You'll cut deep and feel a sense of being electrocuted, which is due to hitting a nerve.

That's all I can answer, you'll have to do your own research. Hopefully by the time you researched it you'll have changed your mind.

 

[All Things Must Pass]

it will be excrutiating.

Why are you doing this then?

 

[Rayzieka]

I'm sorry you feel the need to go out so painfully. I hope there's peace.

 

[Average Joe]

Why are you doing this then?

The ends justify the means.

what's a bit of excruciating pain for some hours compared to living hell daily?

a lot of people often look for a peaceful method, the holy grail. That one tablet that ends it all like some fairy tale.

I know this will kill me, the reward is greater

 

[Average Joe]

Good bye

 

[littleloup]

Wishing you peace.

 

[LastFlowers]

The ends justify the means.

what's a bit of excruciating pain for some hours compared to living hell daily?

a lot of people often look for a peaceful method, the holy grail. That one tablet that ends it all like some fairy tale.

I know this will kill me, the reward is greater

I can't say I think the method is a great idea but as it is your choice, and you seem to have your reasons, I hope you are able to accomplish what you set out to do without any excess pain and/or suffering than you are already anticipating.

 

[WornOutLife]

I wouldn't pick such a painful method.
I'm really sorry to hear you're this desperate.

I'll only say that you should analyse all the possibilities. What if you fail? What about any kind of permanent damage, scars? How will your life be if people know you tried to ctb?
I just don't want you to be through the hell I was for 6 months because trust me, things can get even worse than now.

Anyway, whatever happens, wish you lots of love and peace.

Hugs,

Matt

 

[death137]

You'll cut deep and feel a sense of being electrocuted, which is due to hitting a nerve.

True. I felt that during my attempt. If you really going to attempt this then I hope you bear the pain to finish the job because the consequence of failing is very bad.

 

[Makko]

The ends justify the means.

Admirable attitude. Have a good one.

 

[Largeletters]

I'm sorry your life has been so full of pain and suffering that you have been brought to this point. I hope you did not feel as much pain as you said your method would be. I hope you can find peace.

 

[omoidarui]

And people say suicide is "the easy way out".

Be well

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds like such a painful method, but if this is what you want I wish you peace. Nobody should have to live a life filled with suffering.

 

[Average Joe]

I'm still alive I just woke up.
Thankyou for your kind words.

So close to it this time, absolute agony but I was so damn close.
Will probably attempt this method again

 

[Average Joe]

2 weeks later.

I'm going to give this method another go tonight, but get incredibly drunk. I've got razors to cut with and pills to overdose on. I'm buying every pill I can get my hands on, disappear into a field and die. I know it'll be messy, agonising & leave my family shattered in pieces but THIS HAS TO HAPPEN.

I'm so fucking done with life, I'll give it a few hours before I leave. It's Sunday so I'll wait til the shop opens at 6am (tesco) to buy everything I need.

 

[Bullit]

Jose, find a less terrible way to ctb. I wish you peace and if ctb is what you want,then have it. But this method seems to be among the worst. Why don't you read up on diff. methods. Good luck.
Jose, find a less terrible way to ctb. I wish you peace and if ctb is what you want,then have it. But this method seems to be among the worst. Why don't you read up on diff. methods. Good luck.

 

[TwoTenEightyEight]

If untreated, I will drift in and out of consciousness, blood will shut off and starve my organs of blood, heart attack & coma will soon follow suit

In such a situation, provided one was not found, wouldn't death eventually take place anyway? How would it be possible to inadvertently survive this?

I ask this because Exsanguination is the only method I realistically could choose myself.

Funny, or morbid, that we become invincible only when we don't want it.

 

[hʚll]

2 weeks later.

I'm going to give this method another go tonight, but get incredibly drunk. I've got razors to cut with and pills to overdose on. I'm buying every pill I can get my hands on, disappear into a field and die. I know it'll be messy, agonising & leave my family shattered in pieces but THIS HAS TO HAPPEN.

I'm so fucking done with life, I'll give it a few hours before I leave. It's Sunday so I'll wait til the shop opens at 6am (tesco) to buy everything I need.

hey. are you sure you can't go with other methods? can't you buy sn?
regardless of what you choose to do, i wish you peace

 

[Average Joe]

Jose, find a less terrible way to ctb. I wish you peace and if ctb is what you want,then have it. But this method seems to be among the worst. Why don't you read up on diff. methods. Good luck.
Jose, find a less terrible way to ctb. I wish you peace and if ctb is what you want,then have it. But this method seems to be among the worst. Why don't you read up on diff. methods. Good luck.

The ends justify the means, what's a few hours/days of agonising pain compared to years of it? I suffer every day, this is nothing different.

I haven't attempted yet.

Also can't get my hands on SN

In such a situation, provided one was not found, wouldn't death eventually take place anyway? How would it be possible to inadvertently survive this?

I ask this because Exsanguination is the only method I realistically could choose myself.

Funny, or morbid, that we become invincible only when we don't want it.

Yeah the reasons for survival is being found as well as clotting/not cutting deep enough to sever major arteries.