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hendrix1989
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- Jun 28, 2024
- 5
I just got back from a holiday with my friends, thinking that would put me in a good mood, but the whole time all I could fixate on was CTBing. I got home last night and was supposed to be working today but all I've done is attempt partial hanging. I can't do it, I'm not sure if it's because I can't find my sweetspot, or SI kicking in ( I'm terrified of becoming a vegetable). I also tried full hanging but there's no spot high enough for me to do that.
I rang my psychiatric care team twice the past couple of weeks and they haven't rang me back.
Im alone for the next few days. As I can't seem to complete partial hanging, I'm thinking of taking 210mg of olanzapine (to induce somnolence) and then drowning in the sea, which isn't far from my house. I'll go at midnight.
I rang my psychiatric care team twice the past couple of weeks and they haven't rang me back.
Im alone for the next few days. As I can't seem to complete partial hanging, I'm thinking of taking 210mg of olanzapine (to induce somnolence) and then drowning in the sea, which isn't far from my house. I'll go at midnight.