one single "mistake" and irreversible damage is done, and there's no way to go back and change it. it was that one thing that fucked your life up permanently. and it has now been nearly SIX years since then. you're only 21, and you had just turned 16 when this hell began. six years of life and opportunities missed out on. it feels like its still only been maybe two or three years sometimes, and that theres still hope to fix your situation... but nope, over half a fucking decade later, your late high school and college years are gone, your friends have all moved on, and you're still in pain. and there is no hope left. and if you continue on like this, before you know it, it'll have been seven years, eight years, etc. and time wont ever stop for you. you cant pause it and you cant go back, the world keeps passing you by as you suffer because of something in the far past. its so frustrating, i cant take it anymore knowing what could've been. it isnt fair. time is bullshit. life is bullshit.
theguineapigking
Useless piece of trash
- Dec 5, 2019
- 593
Preach brutha preach!
Time does just drag on. I haven't been through your type of situation, but I can understand what you mean. For me, I feel that I'm stuck on repeat. I wake and sleep, over and over.. "Time stops for no Man/Woman" just came to mind. I know that it feels like life is moving on without you. It's like you can't catch a break, right? Do you have any family or siblings at least? Anyone that you can talk to?
Time does just drag on. I haven't been through your type of situation, but I can understand what you mean. For me, I feel that I'm stuck on repeat. I wake and sleep, over and over.. "Time stops for no Man/Woman" just came to mind. I know that it feels like life is moving on without you. It's like you can't catch a break, right? Do you have any family or siblings at least? Anyone that you can talk to?
i do have some people i can talk to but it does nothing for my particular situation, unfortunately. if my problems werent so unavoidable and severe i wouldnt be at the point where im nonstop depressed and thinking of killing myself.
theguineapigking
Useless piece of trash
- Dec 5, 2019
- 593
I can understand that. Talking can help emotionally. But it doesn't really help you very much in other scenarios.
Life really is bullshit man. It's very unfair. It's completely understandable to feel this way. Many others on the website also agree life is bull.
Anything you want to talk about? Did you post this thread to vent? Or were you needing a friend?
Life really is bullshit man. It's very unfair. It's completely understandable to feel this way. Many others on the website also agree life is bull.
Anything you want to talk about? Did you post this thread to vent? Or were you needing a friend?
PrettyMoose
Eat my arse, Pain&Sh*tness & Mindf*ckitation Grift
- Mar 1, 2020
- 280
I hate that about time as well, there's no way to go back and fix mistakes. We're just forced to live out the regret. Also I hate how everything degrades with time. If we don't die young then we will be old and frail with health conditions piling up one after the other. On top of that still having regrets too. A lot of people consider it a lucky thing to make it to old age. I think it is an unlucky nightmare. I personally refuse to grow old.
disabledandhopeless
Enlightened
- Mar 1, 2020
- 1,893
yep, i relate to this too much. im forced to live with that regret everyday.
this shit has consumed me... no matter what it is i see or hear, it reminds me of my situation and how shitty everything has become. like, i'll just be scrolling on youtube and i'll see a video that i watched when it came out, and it says "6 years ago" and it hits me how time has totally passed me by. and then i spend the next 20 minutes thinking about how much better things were back then, and thinking about how much better things would be now had it not been for one mistake. its driving me insane...
its like i cant actually live my life. all im ever thinking about is how life would've/could've been if it wasnt for the physical pain im in everyday since around mid-2014. im trapped in my head, and all i need to get out of it is the ability to live a painfree life again. but no, thats asking for too much apparently. its torture.
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