Time and Money are Running Out

[StarryStarry]

Well, time and money are running out. I've made so many poor decisions in my life - I guess I feel as if I deserve to ctb (I also want to). All I can tell you is that I tried as hard as I could to live my life the best, to treat others with respect and caring. Didn't get me real far did it? I'm so angry at the asshole who fired me back in August, who lied to the unemployment office and literally destroyed my life. I've not recovered, probably never will, but the hate I feel for him scares me. I'm going to start cleaning the house today, get things in order, need to make sure ny DNR and will are in order, start packing adn head out this weekend. I still haven't been able to find someone to take my sweet girl. It absolutely breaks my heart to leave her behind, but she absolutely hates riding in the car and I have a very long way to go. I don't expect anyone to respond to my posts anymore. I just am so passionate about someone - just one person knowing that I was here, I lived, I struggled, I was physically, mentally and emotionally abused by so many people and now the decision has been made to end it. I will finally be with my little girl.

This world was never meant for one as beautiful as you ....... Fly High and Soar Starry Starry

 

[Somber]

I understand you have been through a lot, but I also believe you can still overcome some of those challenges.

Whatever choices you eventually make, know that we know you were here.

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

The one who lied to the unemployed office has a name and address. If you are also suicidal interesting possibilities arise. I won't say any more than that

 

[StarryStarry]

The one who lied to the unemployed office has a name and address. If you are also suicidal interesting possibilities arise. I won't say any more than that

Because he is an attorney and I am nothing, he is believed and I am not believed. I intend to blame him specifically for my suicide. If there is a way that you are thinking I can accomplish this, let me know.

 

[deleted]

Because he is an attorney and I am nothing, he is believed and I am not believed. I intend to blame him specifically for my suicide. If there is a way that you are thinking I can accomplish this, let me know.

friend here is not allowed to encourage other people imagine murder, you understand what he meant, I heard a phrase somewhere that it's not a good idea to piss off someone who has nothing to lose

 

[Chiisai]

I wish you the best outcomes in whatever you choose. Hope you find the peace youre looking for.

 

[Crazy4u]

you can go to the news, write bad reviews about him online, ....etc

 

[StarryStarry]

friend here is not allowed to encourage other people imagine murder, you understand what he meant, I heard a phrase somewhere that it's not a good idea to piss off someone who has nothing to lose

I understand. Thank you.

 

[StarryStarry]

you can go to the news, write bad reviews about him online, ....etc

because he is an attorney I have to be careful what I say in a public arena. He can sue me for slander - it's so sad because he has literally destroyed my life but keeps on with his as if I was nothing - and I guess I am nothing.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that it has come to this. It sounds like you have suffered a lot. Some people are so cruel and life is so unfair. I know that it can be unbearable living a painful existence. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[soinvisible]

I am so so very sorry that all of this is happening. I am new here, but had read about Sweet Pea on another thread amd I can tell how much she means to you. I don't know if you have it set up for somebody to for 100% sure find her when you leave before its too late for her, but if you don't I wanted to urge you to please take her to a local shelter. Even if it's the community one with open access at least she won't suffer once her food and water run out.

If you go to open access pound/shelter you don't have to give a specific reason you could just say your situation has changed and you can't care for her anymore and they will take her. If you can find a local private or no-kill rescue and give a little more information, like you have a medical condition and you won't live long or something, you might have a chance of getting her in; local rescues are often just so packed that it's hard without a good reason. But even the local community open access shelter or pound gives her a chance to keep living and find a home. And at least she wouldn't suffer or starve/thirst.


If this is impossible, then If we can work it out I could drive and meet you somewhere to pick her up and make sure she gets somewhere safe. I don't have PM ability yet though. Not sure how long that takes/how many posts....

And please forgive me if I misunderstood the other thread.. If you have already worked this out for somebody to find her for sure when you leave, I am certainly not trying to imply that you didn't. I can tell how much you love her. I have a slew of pets myself and I understand.