Discussion Thoughts on Suicide.

[Pancake]

To me, suicide can't be anything more than cowardly, reckless, and selfish. Glorifying suicide with kind words would only steer me away from it. I need to feel like I'm in the wrong for wanting to do this. It's easier for me to accept that I'm just making another mistake, except this time, for the last time. I convince myself that the world will be a better place when I'm gone, yet I think what I'm doing is wrong. It is strange to think about.

When I die, I'd leave all my problems behind unsolved, for others to fix. How many people will I depress and lead down the same downward spiral? How many people will regret not reaching out to me when I was in need of help? I know the grief of losing someone well, how people will feel the same when I'm gone? I need to believe people will resent me and look down upon me for choosing this option.

If I don't think about it this way, I'll stray from this path. I don't deserve anything beautiful or glorifying. I just want to run away with my tail between my legs. I don't deserve a kind ending. Knowing I'll die leaving being terrible consequences for the living certainly discourages me, but it's the only way I'll allow myself to escape.

I know many here will disagree and I'm sorry, I don't want to invalidate how anyone feels about suicide. I wanted to share how I felt. But I'd also like to hear what other people have to say about this. I know people have drastically different perspectives of this and I hope that you'll share your thoughts as well.

 

[Sulyya]

It pretty much about the circumstances of the world we're in, and most societies seem to be the same. In another world where when someone calmly lays out "here's why I'm doing this, here's what I tried, I'd rather ctb - best of luck everyone." and everyone said their goodbyes and it was all organized to reduce trauma and consquences.... that would probably be best. Almost no one in the world as it is seems to be close to accepting that possibility.

 

[mondaymornings]

This is a pretty interesting point of view, you usually only hear this kind of sentiment from prolifers and the like.
I have similar feelings toward my own end. Not necessarily that I'm a coward, but that I'm lazy. Too lazy to confront my own issues, so I'll take the easy way out, and leave everyone to clean up the mess. Although I personally can't find the energy to care about everything I'll be leaving behind, at least most of the time. So it's definitely selfish for me.
I'm sorry things have led you to feel like this, it sounds exhausting. Wish you could think about moving on without having to berate yourself so hard.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Unfortunately, life isn't so neat and tidy so as to make suicide always the inferior option. For a minority of people of undetermined size being given existence is a massive harm. In many cases, letting people go is the way to minimize the most suffering.

 

[WorthlessCoward]

Well, that's like, your opinion, man.

 

[FuneralCry]

If you think that way then that's fine, as long as you don't force your beliefs onto others and insult them for wanting to finally free themselves from the hell that is existing. To me, suicide is self care and I see so much beauty in death, existence is what is the problem, it's something that causes unnecessary harm existing in this world so of course suicide is ideal as it's the way to take control over this life that I never even asked for. There are no disadvantages to being dead so of course to me, it's always preferable to not exist.