Discussion Thoughts on suicide recordings.

[coffeebeany]

I won't do it, but I'm planning to take SN and seeing a SN CTB made me very comforted about mine when the time comes.

I won't do it either. I also thought watching a SN CTB video would terrify me and discourage me from doing it. It is interesting for me that it has comforted you. Thank you for sharing. So you watched something that seemed peaceful (don't know if that's the right word for it).

 

[vanillamilkshakes]

I'd do it if my method was jumping (to show others how much pain I was truly in to go to that length ) but since mine is SN. I feel like there's no point (as there's already been 2 recorded SN suicides)

 

[Thisisnotaname]

I can't record this moment and tbh I don't want it bc I have a daughter and one day she will see this maybe.

 

[Z4T]

How do you all feel about recordings of suicide? Do you view them frequently? Would you consider recording your own suicide?

Neutrally. I think I'm kind of desensitized to such content. There's some traumatizing suicide footage. You can see a person that dies horribly or their gored body or that in a state of decay. But this is life, death and dying isn't pretty. On the other side, you can see the images of people who seem to CTB peacefully without much struggle, such cases don't get footage but sometimes publicized as 'study cases' in the forensic literature. Footage from war is more horrible and posted much more frequently than suicide recordings and people seem to be fine with it. Just check that war-related telegram channels where videos of young males being murder droned in just an entertainment for the local public. I think I'll be fine with recording of my CTB If it could help in promoting the choice of fast and painless suicide methods over bloody ones so people won't turn in the things you see on shock sites.

I also am attracted to the idea of a public suicide. Maybe this negative thought is symptomatic of my depression but it seems fulfilling to expose the world to the negativity I feel so overwhelmed by.

I think they just...won't care or even encourage you to finish the deal.

Some public suicides made news and even hosted on youtube . For example: Budd Dwyer and Slobodan Praljak (NSFL). The first man shot himself in the head on TV the second one drank cyanide in court.

As a final question: if you wanted a video of your suicide to spread, how would you go about it? Commiting in a public space and hoping for a bystander to film? Streaming on social media? Commiting in front of a few and hoping they proliferate the video?

I think doing it in front of a few over the internet is the safest option if you into that sort of thing. Doing it in a public can end in a botched attempt, as for Budd and Slobodan the gun and the poison worked for them well but jumping which is the most common way to commit a public suicide is very risky . You can land on the wrong part of body and end up a vegetable or the first responders manage to knock you down/talk out of it and you'll be locked in a mental ward.

 

[Marco77]

No, if it were up to me I would like to make my body disappear too and leave everyone in doubt.

 

[Zugade]

If you want a recording of your suicide to get onto the internet, there are really only two ways. Either stream it on a public website and hope someone shares it, or ask someone on this website to record it as you die for them on a Discord/Telegram videocall. I'd be willing to do it for people, as long as it doesn't get me in legal trouble.

 

[vanibless]

Sometimes I find myself fantasizing about it but I am aware people will turn it into a meme anyway just like with ronnie mcnutt so what's the point in doing so. Even worse if you fail the attempt,goodbye to your whatever job you would want to have because everyone will think you're some freak and will spread it.Brutal.
I posted some of my attempts on ig stories and I regret it so I just hope everyone forgot,deleted pretty quickly too literally never do it because you will cringe for the rest of your life if you fail