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NoWayOut015
Caught between black and white
- Jun 11, 2023
- 39
I have been suicidal for a while now, often it's just a passive feeling in the background, at the moment it's very strong. Nonetheless I've tried to convince myself in the past that life can get better and is worth living and therefore suicide prevention is important.
What I think I just fully realized now, is that I had a completely wrong idea what suicide prevention is about
I thought it was about helping suicidal people get better, find joy and purpose in life again but actually it's just about making it harder to find methods that work.
Most people don't really care if I get better and like my life as long as it's hard enough for me to quit it and am forced to go on.
I wouldn't mind someone telling me that I'm wrong and there's actual hope but I'm very sceptical now.. I know I'm stupid for thinking otherwise but this makes me sad and angry...
What I think I just fully realized now, is that I had a completely wrong idea what suicide prevention is about
I thought it was about helping suicidal people get better, find joy and purpose in life again but actually it's just about making it harder to find methods that work.
Most people don't really care if I get better and like my life as long as it's hard enough for me to quit it and am forced to go on.
I wouldn't mind someone telling me that I'm wrong and there's actual hope but I'm very sceptical now.. I know I'm stupid for thinking otherwise but this makes me sad and angry...