Thoughts on my note?

[Gaming Chicken]

So. If you're reading this chances are I'm dead. I know it's not gonna be the best surprise nor will it be the easiest thing to come to terms with. But this note isn't for sentimentality. Those notes were given names according to who they're addressed to. Do me a favor, and don't read what hasn't been addressed to you. Anywho, this notes sole purpose is simply to put people at ease. I didn't do this to get back at anyone. This isn't just an "easy way out" of anything. This is me just being tired of living. Being tired of being expected to thrive in a society that runs off of those who lack the means to actually enjoy life, rather than working it away. I don't intend to spend the next half of my life working just to get by. Just to survive. So in a way, I guess I am putting some blame on society as a whole. But that's not what this note is about. And it's not like I just killed myself to get back at society. I'm not stupid enough to think that it'd make a difference. Not as often as people kill themselves as it is. No, this isn't about getting back at anyone, it's about escaping from the lack of meaning I've had all my life. The glaring fact that nothing I've done or ever would do is going to matter 10 years from now let alone 100. The only 3 things in life that have ever really interested me are video games, music, and drugs. None of which do I see getting me very far in life. I mean sure, I had a talent for music, but what am I gonna do with it? Teach? I already can't stand kids, and I know it'd only be a week before I blew up on some kid because they were only taking the class for a credit. But who can blame the kid? The choice was that or Spanish. Okay, and what if I didn't teach? That really only leaves performance. Now, sure. I'm somewhat talented. But I'm not, nor would I ever be good enough to rival anyone who'd made music their career. And who would pick the guy who shows a little talent over the professional? Not a soul. So I'd be on some sidewalk playing for tips, hoping to make rent. Assuming I wasn't living in a box. And the other two are fairly self explanatory as to why they don't make great career choices. So, if I'm working a job that i don't like just to survive, then what am I surviving for? Ya know? I don't have the energy nor the motivation for that shit. So sorry for ending it all so soon. Deuces.


Just so yall know I'm not following through yet just looking for imput on the rough draft

 

[Holu]

So. If you're reading this chances are I'm dead. I know it's not gonna be the best surprise nor will it be the easiest thing to come to terms with. But this note isn't for sentimentality. Those notes were given names according to who they're addressed to. Do me a favor, and don't read what hasn't been addressed to you. Anywho, this notes sole purpose is simply to put people at ease. I didn't do this to get back at anyone. This isn't just an "easy way out" of anything. This is me just being tired of living. Being tired of being expected to thrive in a society that runs off of those who lack the means to actually enjoy life, rather than working it away. I don't intend to spend the next half of my life working just to get by. Just to survive. So in a way, I guess I am putting some blame on society as a whole. But that's not what this note is about. And it's not like I just killed myself to get back at society. I'm not stupid enough to think that it'd make a difference. Not as often as people kill themselves as it is. No, this isn't about getting back at anyone, it's about escaping from the lack of meaning I've had all my life. The glaring fact that nothing I've done or ever would do is going to matter 10 years from now let alone 100. The only 3 things in life that have ever really interested me are video games, music, and drugs. None of which do I see getting me very far in life. I mean sure, I had a talent for music, but what am I gonna do with it? Teach? I already can't stand kids, and I know it'd only be a week before I blew up on some kid because they were only taking the class for a credit. But who can blame the kid? The choice was that or Spanish. Okay, and what if I didn't teach? That really only leaves performance. Now, sure. I'm somewhat talented. But I'm not, nor would I ever be good enough to rival anyone who'd made music their career. And who would pick the guy who shows a little talent over the professional? Not a soul. So I'd be on some sidewalk playing for tips, hoping to make rent. Assuming I wasn't living in a box. And the other two are fairly self explanatory as to why they don't make great career choices. So, if I'm working a job that i don't like just to survive, then what am I surviving for? Ya know? I don't have the energy nor the motivation for that shit. So sorry for ending it all so soon. Deuces.
Just so yall know I'm not following through yet just looking for imput on the rough draft

This isn't peer review hehe. Don't worry about what people tell you to do with your note since it's your note.

I'm sorry for the pain you feel. If you follow through I pray you have an easy and painless escape. All love to you <3

 

[Gaming Chicken]

This isn't peer review hehe. Don't worry about what people tell you to do with your note since it's your note.

I'm sorry for the pain you feel. If you follow through I pray you have an easy and painless escape. All love to you <3

Yea I get it, it's just I've always been careful to not hurt people with what I say, and I'm even more wary of doing so with this note as I don't wanna do lasting damage. I figures I'd just ask here and get some thoughts from some like-minded people.

 

[FuneralCry]

Your note is fine and anyway it's a completely personal decision deciding what to write, I do think your note will mean that those left behind are less likely to be left with as many unanswered questions.

 

[Unwr!tten]

I thought your note was very insightful into how you're feeling and how you feel you're left with very few options. I do think maybe if you're unsure whether or not you're going to follow through, you could look into careers such as video Game tester, or a streamer, etc… there is so many things you could do with your interests— imagine being a composer for the music they use in video games!

Either way, you did a good job and I hope whatever you choose to do, it brings you peace and joy.

 

[Catastrofe]

From my pov your note is not offensive for anyone, nor you are blaming anyone.
I have read this worries you so here is my opinion.

Also it is quite informative. As stated before your loved ones will have some answers.

 

[Gaming Chicken]

Your note is fine and anyway it's a completely personal decision deciding what to write, I do think your note will mean that those left behind are less likely to be left with as many unanswered questions.

Thanks for the reply, and yea almost the entire point of my note is to ensure that nobody blames themselves. I don't wanna go out putting my pain on whoever considered themselves close to me.