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kane9191kosugi
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- Sep 20, 2023
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I was wondering how people in this forum think about the compensation fee after they CTB.
I was looking through the forum and thought inert gas was the most painless and easiest method (in terms of being able to acquire it), but there are few obstacles for me.
First one is the compensation fee which will likely go to my mother. I'm living in Japan, and I'm Japanese btw. My father is currently arrested for financial reasons and my mother (who divorced) is currently living through her savings and part time job.
I don't want to really put my mother in a place where she is financially burdened with crazy debt, but what are realistic options for me to CTB without getting any compensation?
Second one is the place to CTB by using inert gas without getting any compensation. I thought of using it inside my rent apartment, but that will likely lead to huge compensation as there are many essay mangas in Japan that actually shows the families of people who managed to CTB.
Few that I can think of are parks (or washrooms inside the park), rivers (under the bridge or inside a tent for example), forests, but I don't know if carrying one or two inert gas tanks with all the other tools necessary are realistic.
Man, I just want to end this current suffering, so why the hell do I have to think about the afterlife lol. I just want to leave peacefully asap.
Sorry for the long post! Looking forward to all your opinions on this matter.
I was looking through the forum and thought inert gas was the most painless and easiest method (in terms of being able to acquire it), but there are few obstacles for me.
First one is the compensation fee which will likely go to my mother. I'm living in Japan, and I'm Japanese btw. My father is currently arrested for financial reasons and my mother (who divorced) is currently living through her savings and part time job.
I don't want to really put my mother in a place where she is financially burdened with crazy debt, but what are realistic options for me to CTB without getting any compensation?
Second one is the place to CTB by using inert gas without getting any compensation. I thought of using it inside my rent apartment, but that will likely lead to huge compensation as there are many essay mangas in Japan that actually shows the families of people who managed to CTB.
Few that I can think of are parks (or washrooms inside the park), rivers (under the bridge or inside a tent for example), forests, but I don't know if carrying one or two inert gas tanks with all the other tools necessary are realistic.
Man, I just want to end this current suffering, so why the hell do I have to think about the afterlife lol. I just want to leave peacefully asap.
Sorry for the long post! Looking forward to all your opinions on this matter.