Those with significant other, how does your partner react to your suicidal thoughts?

[timetosleep]

Are your partners supportive when you are in a rough spots? How do they do so? Or does it often lead to conflict?

 

[Life_and_Death]

He tried, I wore him out, now I'm blocked,

 

[StarlightDreamer]

Last time I talked about my preparations, I made him cry. We actually lost a close friend to suicide less than one year ago, and he sees shades of her in me. Hopefully it won't come to that.

 

[Ethereal Knight]

4-6 years ago when I had a girlfriend and I mentioned something about CTB, she said she'd leave me, because she "doesn't want to bond with someone who will be dead and who will leave her alone here".

it kinda makes sense.

she ended up leaving me indeed, although apparently for other reasons.

 

[Coffeebean77]

My girlfriend left me partly because she felt "burnt out" by my ideation every day. I don't blame her but am still heartbroken.

 

[finish.me]

my boyfriend said "please dont leave me alone" earlier today and itbroke my heart and made me feel worse emotionally. I am genuinely, genuinely trapped

 

[not_ready]

our relationship is long distance so she doesn't know alot about my mental health issues and I try to not talk to her when I'm down anyways she broke up with me 2 weeks ago for other reasons and I felt like shit

 

[want2dienow]

don't have one, (pid dra uha E meja fedr) encourages it. i'm so shameful

 

[western_heart]

She listens and understands, and works to help make my life better. Makes sure I'm eating and helps me to go bed on time etc. I tried to break up with her twice over the years but she stays with me.

 

[DynamicDepression]

He is very understanding. I've said that should assisted dying be legalized in my country I will go through with it. Even though he doesn't want me to, he supports my decision. I couldn't ask for a better partner.

 

[OpheliasFlowers]

He's never truly understood (which I get, he's never been in the headspace of chronic, major depression nor had the chronic health problems or life experiences Ive had, so how could he really understand?) and at times he's made attempts to 'try to understand' but never put too much effort into it. As the years have dragged on, he's become less and less understanding, increasingly burnt out dealing with me and all my mental and physical problems, and resentment has built. He really prefers not to hear about it anymore and I've become tired and apathetic in regards to talking to him about it, so I don't unless I'm really really REALLY upset and it spills out. Then it's like nothing happened and we don't talk about it. So in the end, I feel very alone. Ironically, him 'being here' physically but so distant and detached only makes me feel MORE alone.

 

[theboy]

Well, I recently told my ex that I was going to end my life. After a tough conversation, she told me "I'm busy, bye." The incredible thing is that she hasn't spoken to me again. If he were dead now she wouldn't know. She doesn't care at all.

 

[rainwillneverstop]

I have only been at the recieving end, I wasn't suicidal when I was with my ex.
She sometimes told me the thoughts, sometimes even how she would do it if she was going to.
It is hard to hear those things from someone you love, but I always tried my best to hide those emotions and listen the best I could. And just simply be there.
Sometimes it could end in conflicts, it is a tough subject.

 

[Shikamaru]

Me and my partner both struggle a lot with our mental health, when I told him I am seriously going to CTB, he said then he at least wants us to do it together
Still not sure what to do

 

[Alnilam]

He constantly tells me he doesn't want me to leave him alone. Tells me to think about family and friends. The thing is, I don't have any friends. My parents would probably feel relieved if I passed, they'd get over it. I just feel so numb, I don't bring it up or tell him how I'm really feeling anymore. It doesn't seem to matter anyways and there's no point in making us both upset. I just try to act normal, make him happy. Hopefully he'll be able to move on after I'm gone, I'm sure he will. He has his own struggles of course, but seems determined to keep living and isn't plagued by any mental or physical illnesses.