Those who were abused: do you find that the abuse never ended?

[Volatile]

That it continued by means of new abusers who would enter your life afterward? Not necessarily the same kind of abuse

I feel that way. I also feel that since the brain is like a computer and that the first 6 yrs of life define us that I'm stuck in abuse mode forever.

 

[Deleted member 847]

Yes I was never able to overcome my trauma. I still think that everyone in society hates me no matter what and I have a low self esteem (thanks mom and bullies). I know, my thoughts are irrational (Are they? Maybe some people really do hate me) but there's nothing that I can do about it. I'm jealous of those happy kids who were loved by their parents and appreciated in society.

 

[mattwitt]

Every time I started a new job It was the same abuse over and over... Just different names and faces to deal with.

 

[Volatile]

Every time I started a new job It was the same abuse over and over... Just different assholes and morons.

Like what?

 

[typx]

I hate my mom for what she did. And what she didn't do. And my dad for not caring.

 

[mattwitt]

Like what?

People harassing me, intimidating me, threatening to beat me up or kill me, asking me to borrow money with no intention of paying me back or people demanding that I give them rides with no intention of paying me for it. And then there's management who sit around all day thinking of ways to take money away from me and get me to do more and different work. I could probably go on for hours. Work for me has always been a battlefield where I am physically mentally, and emotionally tortured. It's like every where I go I have to deal with people who are the complete opposite of intelligent, educated, sophisticated, mature, hard working, and professional... In other words people who are total and complete fucking asshole morons !!!

 

[Smilla]

Yup.

The reason why I have nightmare dreams.

 

[mattwitt]

Yup.

The reason why I have nightmare dreams.

I guess that's why I constantly have nightmares about high school, work, and bootcamp

 

[typx]

People harassing me, intimidating me, threatening to beat me up or kill me, asking me to borrow money with no intention of paying me back or people demanding that I give them rides with no intention of paying me for it. And then there's management who sit around all day thinking of ways to take money away from me and get me to do more and different work. I could probably go on for hours. Work for me has always been a battlefield where I am physically mentally, and emotionally tortured. It's like every where I go I have to deal with people who are the complete opposite of intelligent, educated, sophisticated, mature, hard working, and professional... In other words people who are total and complete fucking asshole morons !!!

What kind of work do you do?

 

[mattwitt]

What kind of work do you do?

Not working right now. It's been all factory and food service work.

 

[typx]

Not working right now. It's been all factory and food service work.

Yeah, I had a feeling with the people you described.

 

[typx]

I heard a term recently.. 'emotional incest'. Like when a parent overburdens a child with emotions and issues suited to an adult. When they try and get the child to take the role of partner.

 

[Tiburcio]

Stupid humans...

Yes, my parents and they deserve to be pierced by a spear and be set to the fire and burned alive for what they did.

 

[Snee]

i was sexualy abuse by some evil/demon every night when i was kid

 

[mattwitt]

Yeah, I had a feeling with the people you described.

At my last job I had to supervise convicted violent offenders, gang bangers, drug dealers, drug addicts, and other people that were impossible to train and or supervise. I felt like I was in a prison run by the inmates.

 

[Volatile]

At my last job I had to supervise convicted violent offenders, gang bangers, drug dealers, drug addicts, and other people that were impossible to train and or supervise. I felt like I was in a prison run by the inmates.

Tell about a particular day that stands out to you

 

[mattwitt]

Tell about a particular day that stands out to you

Now you sound like a therapist lol : ) I have many days that stand out but It would be a lot of typing and would start to stress me out. Going back to work is the #1 reason why I really just don't want to go on living anymore.