Mustkeyknow
Experienced
- Feb 8, 2020
- 275
I wanna know what came to mind during those final moments, how strong was the SI, and such. Just so I can be ready when my time comes.
one4all
I'll put pennies on your eyes and it will go away.
- Feb 3, 2020
- 3,455
@Mustkeyknow There is a search function on this site. Have you tried searching your topic? It's been discussed a lot already.
InTheAirTonight
I tried
- Feb 29, 2020
- 475
I couldn't drink it twice, just took a tiny sip both times.
I was thinking about how it will feel - the dying process, I was thinking about those who I was going to leave and my cats. Second time my cat decided she wanted to sit on my lap...
And I also was thinking about the finality of it. True end of my life and my ego.. and.. everything that could be. I think there was tiny hope left in me.
The second time I felt weird after: weak and slightly dizzy, guess the sip was bigger second time.
If I'll ctb it is going to be on an impulse. Fasting time makes me to calm down a bit.
Also SN from different batches tasted different, first one was burning, second just salty.
I was thinking about how it will feel - the dying process, I was thinking about those who I was going to leave and my cats. Second time my cat decided she wanted to sit on my lap...
And I also was thinking about the finality of it. True end of my life and my ego.. and.. everything that could be. I think there was tiny hope left in me.
The second time I felt weird after: weak and slightly dizzy, guess the sip was bigger second time.
If I'll ctb it is going to be on an impulse. Fasting time makes me to calm down a bit.
Also SN from different batches tasted different, first one was burning, second just salty.
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